MARKY MARK!!!

I'm a crazed fan girl...that's Mark Bellhorn (god he's hott)

anyyyy way...since i like to post lyrics...here:

"I wanted to find somewhere to hide
And I opened up and left those fears inside
And I wanted to be in near on this
Only to find that there was noone there but me
But I woke up to real life
And I realised its not worth running from anymore
When there was nowhere left to hide I found out
That nothings real here but I wont stop now until I find a better part of me
I let those hard days get me down
And all the things I hate got in my way
I could of screamed without a sound
I found myself silenced by those things they say
But I woke up to real life
And I realised its not worth running from anymore
When there was nowhere left to hide I found out
That nothings real here but I wont stop now until I find a better part of me
Thats out there somewhere
And it cant be that far away
Thats where ill find myself
And i'll find my way out
Thats where i'll find out
But I woke up to real life
And I realised its not worth running from anymore
When there was nowhere left to hide I found out
That nothings real here but I wont stop now until I find a better part of me."- 3 Doors down- "The Real Life."

The shades gone up
Mothers staring down
She don't know where he's been
Or how long he's been out
She said 'Boy i'm tired of waiting up while your out with your friends'
He said 'Mom im trying and im living my life the best way that I can'
Cause i'm trying to be somebody
I'm not trying to be somebody else
This life is mine i'm living
Don't you know me? I wont ever let you down
The day has come
The son is moving on
She don't know where he'll go
Or when he's coming home
She said 'Son take care, don't let your dreams get too far out of sight'
He said 'I love you now, don't worry about me you know i'll be fine'
Cause i'm trying to be somebody
I'm not trying to be somebody else
This life is mine i'm living
Don't you know me? I wont ever let you down
NoI'm not trying to be somebody else
Don't you know me? I wont ever let you
I wont ever let you
What they say
What they know
What they think wont ever bring me down
This life is mine and I am my own
I'm trying to be somebody
I'm not trying to be somebody else
This life is mine I lead
Don't you know me?
I'm trying to be somebody
I'm not trying to be somebody else
This life is mine i'm living
Don't you know me? I wont ever let you down
I'm not trying to be somebody else
Don't you know me? I wont ever let you downI wont be nobody else
This life is mine and i am my own"- 3 doors down- "Be somebody."

"Lay me down
Wash this blood off my hands for me while I cry out
Don't let me die before I go to sleep
And I can't keep going
But I cannot start again
This road I walk is paved with broken promises I've made
At least a million times I've fallen But never will I break
These walls I make
They could hold me in and hold me back today
Oh but tomorrow's new and I'll walk right out and walk right over you
If you hear me screaming
Please don't let me fall againT
his road I walk is paved with broken promises I've made
At least a million times I've fallen But never will I break
My time is on its way
I'll fall but I won't break
This road I walk is paved with broken promises
I've madeAt least a million times I've fallen But never will I break
This road I walk is paved with broken promises I've made
At least a million times I've fallen But never will I break" - 3 doors down "never will i break" great cd...go buy it....


ta...

It's over...THANK GOD.

Why do I bother coming here and updating you ask...because I can.

I've come to the realization...that i have no need, or want for any of the people who were in the main homeschool group (Cerridwen not included) Why should i want to hang out with people who don't care...I don't care so what is the point??? I'm sick of it...i've been away from it long enough...I'm done...I've got my friends...i don't need their friendship...all of that popular shit can die and burn in hell for all I care, i'm sick of being on the outside, so you know what...i'm just going to walk away...I've known those people longer then a lot of their good friends...and you know what Fuck it...I'm not good enough for any of them...so what...I don't care anymore...thank god...It's over...and I'm happy, I don't need to be someone else for them...i don't need to be someone else for anyone. They can like me for me...or they can hate me for it...but that's all they are going to get...it's everyone choice.
In a way...I think me finding friends that i know are true lately really helped me out with that.
I really am sick of it...I mean...I haven't seen them in a long time and i'm sick of it...I've got friends who are so much more like me...i think that's why...there's...Rel...Casey, Corinne, Cerridwen...Andrew, Sarah, Sara, i honestly don't have a huge group of good friends...but i'm content with just a few...i used to have more...but who cares...I love who my friends are.
I am who I am...and anyone who would like to tell me other wise can burn for all I care, who ever you think i should be to make you like me is not me...and you can get over it and actually think about liking me even though i'm different...or...Hey...you can just go on your merry way...because i sure as hell am getting ready to go on mine...
so fuck the world...

You know who i am
and fuck you if you don't care
Loud, yeah that's what you think
I'm tormented don't you worry
more mature then you'll ever be
I'm sick of this
it's over now
I just wish that you could see
What you are missing out on
I can't believe i cared
God what was i thinking.
you're choice, not mine.
If you want me..try to catch up with me.
I'm already on my way.
Fuck all you people who don't get it
and fuck all of you who don't look beyond it
this shit is over...i'm sick of it
I've realized it now
I don't need the popular crowd to get by
I need people who i can talk to
People who i can joke with
My friends...
No more trying
no more crying because i don't fit in
it's over
i don't care
None of you care either
and that's how it should be
goodbye longing
Welcome to Now.

"Baby's black balloon makes her fly
I almost fell into that hole in your life
And you're not thinking bout tomorrow
Cause you were the same as me
But on your knees
A thousand other boys could never reach you
How could I have been the one
I saw the world spin beneath you
And scatter like ice from the spoon
That was your womb

Coming down the world turned over
And angels fall without you there
And I go on as you get colder
Or are you someone's prayer

You know the lies they always told you
And the love you never knew
What's the things they never showed you
That swallow the light from the sun
Inside your room
Coming down the world turned over
And angels fall without you there
And I go on as you get colder
Always someone. . .

And there's no time left for losing
When you stand they fall
Coming down the world turned over
And angels fall without you there
And I go on as you get colder
All because I'm
Coming down the years turned over
And angels fall without you there
And I'll go on now and lead you home and
All because I'm
All because I'm
And I'll become
What you became to me "- Black Ballon - the goo goo dolls

because it's one of my favorite songs.

the weavers live up the street from me
the crackheads, they live down the street from me
the tall grass makes it hard to see
beyond my property
hey man, this is criminal,this hard line symmetry
of people and pets
we don't bother anyone
we keep to ourselvesthe mailman visits each of us in turn
we don't bother anyone
we keep to ourselves
the mailman visits each of us in time
gotta live, gotta live, gotta live
in shit towne
gotta live, gotta live, gotta live
in our town."- Shit Towne by Live

because...hell...it's true. in a way.

I'm off...to bed...ta...all you people who don't read this.

Love,
Bennett (Or better known as Haley)

meh.

Well, i haven't updated this in...well....about a month. i guess that's what LiveJournal will do to you.
My birthday is in 4 days. It should be awesome. People are coming over that night for cheesecake. yummmmmmmm.
Horkans are coming on the 23, that should be interesting, i haven't seen them...since may...or june...or something like that. I have to say Paul has become my favorite Horkan, he's the honest one. i could probably make him a good non-clone-like-person if i really wanted to, the other ones are too old for me to even try. Emily never went out of that preppy teenybopper stage. I did, because well, being a teeny is the farthest thing on my mind, and i will say the only time i think about pop or rap is when I'm saying it sucks, or I'm saying that it's actually sort of good (avril lavgine, fefe dobson,Pink, jay-z and linkin parks new songs) I don't like rap, but i'm telling you Linkin Park and Jay-z together rocks. god...everyone should be listening to encore/numb, it is the best. it's just awesome...i think you should all listen to it because it rocks. it's just...wow.
Kayla might be sleeping over next weekend *squeels* i haven't seen her in a while.
Aunt Linda sent me presents i got them...they rock a really awesome red sox world champs shirt and some christmas socks that are really cool, the red sox shirt is...yay!!! that would be my third red sox shirt, i have three hats, i need some pictures, or pants, or something.
i'm waiting for Cerridwen to get here. she should be here soon.
then it's off to contra.
wheee!!!
well i'll see ya'll later.
Loves from,
Haley Bennett.

it's about time

i've been negelcting my blog...you can arrest me for neglect if you must *Holds out hands so you can put hand cuffs on them* i however have not been negelecting my live journal...i hate to admit it...but i stort of like it better then this...although i do love my blog *Huggles blog*
i'm listening to rammstein...i need a rammstein cd...or four. *head bangs to "Ich will"* i have fallen in love with rammstein...they are just...awesome. you should all listen to them, no matter how perverted the translations to the songs are...*gives look at the meaning behind bück dich, and the meaning for Halleuja* they are all awesome songs. *head bangs and sings "ich will"*
my head hurts, i'm tired, and the red sox are only one game behind the yankees (meaning if they win tonight it's tied and the next person to win goes to the world seris if they lose....yankees go) i HATE the Yankees....
i'm really really tired though...had to watch the last hour and a half of the second part of the farscape mini seris...i missed the begining of the second airing...cuz i was watching the all important baseball game.
*puts on bück dich* this song is awesome...another great rammstein song is "mein teil" go to launch and watch the video. www.launch.com o oops...you have to be a yahoo member...uhh...i don't know...find a way to listen to the great german industreil music. listen to KMFDM too...they're awesome. and well read my live journal if you really miss me...most new stuff is on there. i update whenever the need be.
alrighty...i'm going to go....maybe take something for my headache.
loves your little invisable friend
Haley Bennett

more song...hour...thing

"Trapped under ice
Comfortably cold
I've gone as low as you can go
Feel no remorse
No sense of shame
Time's gonna wash away all pain
I made a god out of blood
Not superiority
I killed the king of deceit
Now I sleep in anarchy
Sacrifice to the cause
Turn your code into law
Compensate to validate the loss
Take a thief
Nail him to a cross
Gospel of rage
Faction of hate
Deviate from the absolute
Born of revenge
Raised on cement
Chaos created government
I made a god out of blood
Not superiority
I killed the king of deciet
wake me up in Anarchy."- KMFDM "Anarchy"

"Ready steady stop
Hurry up and wait
The tick tick ticking of the clock
Delineates your fate
What I don't see I don't know
What I don't know I don't want
What I don't want I don't need
What I don't need I don't feel
What I don't fee I don't say
What I don't say I don't do
What I don't do I don't like
What I don't like I waste" - KMFDM "Waste"


"I have come to rock your world
I have come to shake your faith
Anathematic Anarchist
I have come to take my place
I am your apocalypse
I am your belief unwrought
Monolithic juggernaut
I'm the illegitimate son of god"- KMFDM "Stray Bullet."

"Ask not What you can do for your country
ask what your country did to you
the only reason your still alive is because someone has decided to let you live
We owe so much money we're not broke we're broken
we're so poor we can't even pay attention.
So what do you want do you want, you want to be famous and rich and happy but your terrifed you have nothining to offer this world nothing to say and no way to say it but you can say it in three langauges." -KMFDM -"Dogma"

"The stars will cry
The blackest tears tonight
And this is the moment that I live for
I can smell the ocean air
And here I amPouring my heart onto these rooftops
Just a ghost to the world
That's exactly
Exactly what I need
From up here the city lights burn
Like a thousand miles of fire
And I'm here to sing this anthem
Of our dying day
For a second I wish the tide
Would swallow every inch of this city
As you gasp for air tonight
I'd scream this song right in your face
If you were here
I swear I won't miss a beat
Cause I never
Never have before" Story of the Year "Anthem of our dying day."


"now how should i feel
i think i feel alright
so tell me where to aim
i'm blinded by the light
this world is crazy
my dreams are fading
no one can save me
i want my life
and when i wake up you'll be here
and it will be the way it was"- Smile Empty Soul "I want my life"

"too many weeds in the flowers
too many pills in the pharmacy now
too many bugs in the shower
there's too much shit in the air we breathe now
there's too much anger inside me
there's too much scarring when i bleed
there's too much therapy i need
there is no god that i have seen" - Smile Empty Soul "Therapy"

"stand there with your ball and chain
bitch about what you've created
caught up in the masquerade
you've already been paid and made it
so don't pretend to know what it's like
to feel the things that we must live through
you only see with your dying eyes
there's only one thing i will ask of you
can you take this life
can you make it right do you have the words to say to make it all go away
you act so wise
and so refined
you can keep your lies cos i'm
never gonna go your way
promises of a better life
but what's wrong with the one i'm leading
everyone has a different fight
a different wound that keeps them bleeding
so what's wrong with a little fun
everybody needs to find their something
is this how your gonna treat your son
f*** 'em up and give em nothing
[chorus]
everybody needs to find their own way through life
everybody needs to find their own way"- Smile Empty Soul "Your way"

Yea...i like KMFDM and Smile Empty Soul....i'm insane like that...
so well that's my update...besides the fact that i am DONE with "no easy answers: the truth behind death at columbine" great book...everyone should go out and read it because it rocks....*smiles*
ah well talk to ya'll later.
oh, yea...and i like pipe staging....it doesn't wobble. and moutain dew code red...rocks..yummmmmmmmmmmmmmmm that and Vinilla Pepsi...they are the only soda's i'll buy if they are there...unless there is something else i want to try...but most of the time i'll buy one of them....i don't like plain soda anymore...it's much better when there is flavor.
Haley.

oh well

i was going to update...september 11th but i was sidetracked...why you ask..because it would have been Dylan Klebold's 23rd birthday and because of all the sadness about the day anyway.
The morning of September 11th (acutally 12:00am) i completly changed my views on how dylan died...i now think he was shot by a cop. his tec-9 is in his right hand....the wound on his left temple. the path of the bullet is slightly downward...now who would tilt thier head and shoot themselves in the head in the left temple with their right hand...come on kids, make the motion...tell me how hard it is. and his origional possion makes you think to, he was on Eric's knee....now why would he be close enough to fall on Eric's knee??? and who would have kicked him over? ahh the mysteries of the columbine shooting that we will never know..
i am getting "no easy answers: the truth behind the death at columbine" YAY!!!!! should be here tomorrrow or the next day...along with a german book...be prepared for German in posts Ich bin gott!!!!!! Sort of like that...i love that saying i thank Eric Harris for making me like that saying...haha... it means "i am god" i'm getting a whole bunch of books actually, i can't wait...of course that means i'll have to start school work, which shouldn't bother me if i have stuff that i like doing. lets see, i'm learning about: Medievil history, U.S history, U.S. consatution, U.S government, Algebra (just because i can even though i'm only in 8th grade) and German, and of course a whole bunch of other math. i can't wait for it all to get here...fun fun fun....ha ha ...GERMAN!!!!!!!! Then me and Rachel (person from Livejournal) can talk to each other in German...haha..should be a lot of fun.

Wedding Day

Well Rachel and Jeff are getting married today, at 1:00pm it'll be awesome, i'm a Junior bridesmaid, haha, one step up from flower girl, i have to walk and dance with Jerry (he's my fathers age) but i know him so it's ok, mom and i have to go over to Mary Mars' (jeff's mom's) house at 8:30 to get all ready with all of the other girls, Dad and the rest of the guys are going to Jimmy's (jeff's brother/best man)
can't wait, i get to dance with corinne and casey since they're coming, and i get to sit at the head table (i didn't last time i was in the wedding those were the disadvagtages of being a flower girl, haha, wheee. it'll be awesome, we'll be out really late probably, we have really pretty dresses they are plain tank top style sleeves, looooong navy blue, and these shoes that are a little too small so i have to try not to kill my self (Nevermind that they are heals)
i like my new cd it's good, it's Crossfade, which i thankfully heard on Octane satalite radio one night and i fell in love with them, haha
"hey hey watch me wave goodbye to yesterday, nothing left in my way
hey hey i've been saved with sun shining on my pain getting me through this day
hey hey watch me wave goodbye to yesterday nothing left in my way feel so good to say so far away i've been changin but you'll never see me now."- Crossfade so far away

i'm happy for rachel and jeff, i mean i can't picture them marrying anyone else but each other, they are like family, Jeff, Rachel, Jerry, Dave, Jodi, Casey, Corinne, they are all like family, even though there's like three diffrent familes there, and you can't forget little jimmy and Jayme, i've known jimmy since he was two or three, and they both hang on me, all the time, but i love them anyway. I love all of the people that i have found are true friends, even if we haven't known them for very long, Corinne and Casey are true friends to me, Jeff and Rachel are, Jerry is, all of the comeaus (counting corinne and case and amanda) are, i love our "newfounded friends" we have known them all for a few years, well i should go get ready it's 8:09 so i might want to think about making sure i have everything, alright,
see ya,
love ya,
have fun,
Haley.