Ich Hasst Dadurch Ich Bin

MARKY MARK!!!

2005-03-05T13:06:00.000-05:00

I'm a crazed fan girl...that's Mark Bellhorn (god he's hott)

anyyyy way...since i like to post lyrics...here:

"I wanted to find somewhere to hide
And I opened up and left those fears inside
And I wanted to be in near on this
Only to find that there was noone there but me
But I woke up to real life
And I realised its not worth running from anymore
When there was nowhere left to hide I found out
That nothings real here but I wont stop now until I find a better part of me
I let those hard days get me down
And all the things I hate got in my way
I could of screamed without a sound
I found myself silenced by those things they say
But I woke up to real life
And I realised its not worth running from anymore
When there was nowhere left to hide I found out
That nothings real here but I wont stop now until I find a better part of me
Thats out there somewhere
And it cant be that far away
Thats where ill find myself
And i'll find my way out
Thats where i'll find out
But I woke up to real life
And I realised its not worth running from anymore
When there was nowhere left to hide I found out
That nothings real here but I wont stop now until I find a better part of me."- 3 Doors down- "The Real Life."

The shades gone up
Mothers staring down
She don't know where he's been
Or how long he's been out
She said 'Boy i'm tired of waiting up while your out with your friends'
He said 'Mom im trying and im living my life the best way that I can'
Cause i'm trying to be somebody
I'm not trying to be somebody else
This life is mine i'm living
Don't you know me? I wont ever let you down
The day has come
The son is moving on
She don't know where he'll go
Or when he's coming home
She said 'Son take care, don't let your dreams get too far out of sight'
He said 'I love you now, don't worry about me you know i'll be fine'
Cause i'm trying to be somebody
I'm not trying to be somebody else
This life is mine i'm living
Don't you know me? I wont ever let you down
NoI'm not trying to be somebody else
Don't you know me? I wont ever let you
I wont ever let you
What they say
What they know
What they think wont ever bring me down
This life is mine and I am my own
I'm trying to be somebody
I'm not trying to be somebody else
This life is mine I lead
Don't you know me?
I'm trying to be somebody
I'm not trying to be somebody else
This life is mine i'm living
Don't you know me? I wont ever let you down
I'm not trying to be somebody else
Don't you know me? I wont ever let you downI wont be nobody else
This life is mine and i am my own"- 3 doors down- "Be somebody."

"Lay me down
Wash this blood off my hands for me while I cry out
Don't let me die before I go to sleep
And I can't keep going
But I cannot start again
This road I walk is paved with broken promises I've made
At least a million times I've fallen But never will I break
These walls I make
They could hold me in and hold me back today
Oh but tomorrow's new and I'll walk right out and walk right over you
If you hear me screaming
Please don't let me fall againT
his road I walk is paved with broken promises I've made
At least a million times I've fallen But never will I break
My time is on its way
I'll fall but I won't break
This road I walk is paved with broken promises
I've madeAt least a million times I've fallen But never will I break
This road I walk is paved with broken promises I've made
At least a million times I've fallen But never will I break" - 3 doors down "never will i break" great cd...go buy it....

ta...

It's over...THANK GOD.

2005-02-06T01:54:00.000-05:00

Why do I bother coming here and updating you ask...because I can.

I've come to the realization...that i have no need, or want for any of the people who were in the main homeschool group (Cerridwen not included) Why should i want to hang out with people who don't care...I don't care so what is the point??? I'm sick of it...i've been away from it long enough...I'm done...I've got my friends...i don't need their friendship...all of that popular shit can die and burn in hell for all I care, i'm sick of being on the outside, so you know what...i'm just going to walk away...I've known those people longer then a lot of their good friends...and you know what Fuck it...I'm not good enough for any of them...so what...I don't care anymore...thank god...It's over...and I'm happy, I don't need to be someone else for them...i don't need to be someone else for anyone. They can like me for me...or they can hate me for it...but that's all they are going to get...it's everyone choice.
In a way...I think me finding friends that i know are true lately really helped me out with that.
I really am sick of it...I mean...I haven't seen them in a long time and i'm sick of it...I've got friends who are so much more like me...i think that's why...there's...Rel...Casey, Corinne, Cerridwen...Andrew, Sarah, Sara, i honestly don't have a huge group of good friends...but i'm content with just a few...i used to have more...but who cares...I love who my friends are.
I am who I am...and anyone who would like to tell me other wise can burn for all I care, who ever you think i should be to make you like me is not me...and you can get over it and actually think about liking me even though i'm different...or...Hey...you can just go on your merry way...because i sure as hell am getting ready to go on mine...
so fuck the world...

You know who i am
and fuck you if you don't care
Loud, yeah that's what you think
I'm tormented don't you worry
more mature then you'll ever be
I'm sick of this
it's over now
I just wish that you could see
What you are missing out on
I can't believe i cared
God what was i thinking.
you're choice, not mine.
If you want me..try to catch up with me.
I'm already on my way.
Fuck all you people who don't get it
and fuck all of you who don't look beyond it
this shit is over...i'm sick of it
I've realized it now
I don't need the popular crowd to get by
I need people who i can talk to
People who i can joke with
My friends...
No more trying
no more crying because i don't fit in
it's over
i don't care
None of you care either
and that's how it should be
goodbye longing
Welcome to Now.

"Baby's black balloon makes her fly
I almost fell into that hole in your life
And you're not thinking bout tomorrow
Cause you were the same as me
But on your knees
A thousand other boys could never reach you
How could I have been the one
I saw the world spin beneath you
And scatter like ice from the spoon
That was your womb

Coming down the world turned over
And angels fall without you there
And I go on as you get colder
Or are you someone's prayer

You know the lies they always told you
And the love you never knew
What's the things they never showed you
That swallow the light from the sun
Inside your room
Coming down the world turned over
And angels fall without you there
And I go on as you get colder
Always someone. . .

And there's no time left for losing
When you stand they fall
Coming down the world turned over
And angels fall without you there
And I go on as you get colder
All because I'm
Coming down the years turned over
And angels fall without you there
And I'll go on now and lead you home and
All because I'm
All because I'm
And I'll become
What you became to me "- Black Ballon - the goo goo dolls

because it's one of my favorite songs.

the weavers live up the street from me
the crackheads, they live down the street from me
the tall grass makes it hard to see
beyond my property
hey man, this is criminal,this hard line symmetry
of people and pets
we don't bother anyone
we keep to ourselvesthe mailman visits each of us in turn
we don't bother anyone
we keep to ourselves
the mailman visits each of us in time
gotta live, gotta live, gotta live
in shit towne
gotta live, gotta live, gotta live
in our town."- Shit Towne by Live

because...hell...it's true. in a way.

I'm off...to bed...ta...all you people who don't read this.

Love,
Bennett (Or better known as Haley)

meh.

2004-11-20T19:10:00.000-05:00

Well, i haven't updated this in...well....about a month. i guess that's what LiveJournal will do to you.
My birthday is in 4 days. It should be awesome. People are coming over that night for cheesecake. yummmmmmmm.
Horkans are coming on the 23, that should be interesting, i haven't seen them...since may...or june...or something like that. I have to say Paul has become my favorite Horkan, he's the honest one. i could probably make him a good non-clone-like-person if i really wanted to, the other ones are too old for me to even try. Emily never went out of that preppy teenybopper stage. I did, because well, being a teeny is the farthest thing on my mind, and i will say the only time i think about pop or rap is when I'm saying it sucks, or I'm saying that it's actually sort of good (avril lavgine, fefe dobson,Pink, jay-z and linkin parks new songs) I don't like rap, but i'm telling you Linkin Park and Jay-z together rocks. god...everyone should be listening to encore/numb, it is the best. it's just awesome...i think you should all listen to it because it rocks. it's just...wow.
Kayla might be sleeping over next weekend *squeels* i haven't seen her in a while.
Aunt Linda sent me presents i got them...they rock a really awesome red sox world champs shirt and some christmas socks that are really cool, the red sox shirt is...yay!!! that would be my third red sox shirt, i have three hats, i need some pictures, or pants, or something.
i'm waiting for Cerridwen to get here. she should be here soon.
then it's off to contra.
wheee!!!
well i'll see ya'll later.
Loves from,
Haley Bennett.

it's about time

2004-10-19T17:48:00.000-04:00

i've been negelcting my blog...you can arrest me for neglect if you must *Holds out hands so you can put hand cuffs on them* i however have not been negelecting my live journal...i hate to admit it...but i stort of like it better then this...although i do love my blog *Huggles blog*
i'm listening to rammstein...i need a rammstein cd...or four. *head bangs to "Ich will"* i have fallen in love with rammstein...they are just...awesome. you should all listen to them, no matter how perverted the translations to the songs are...*gives look at the meaning behind bück dich, and the meaning for Halleuja* they are all awesome songs. *head bangs and sings "ich will"*
my head hurts, i'm tired, and the red sox are only one game behind the yankees (meaning if they win tonight it's tied and the next person to win goes to the world seris if they lose....yankees go) i HATE the Yankees....
i'm really really tired though...had to watch the last hour and a half of the second part of the farscape mini seris...i missed the begining of the second airing...cuz i was watching the all important baseball game.
*puts on bück dich* this song is awesome...another great rammstein song is "mein teil" go to launch and watch the video. www.launch.com o oops...you have to be a yahoo member...uhh...i don't know...find a way to listen to the great german industreil music. listen to KMFDM too...they're awesome. and well read my live journal if you really miss me...most new stuff is on there. i update whenever the need be.
alrighty...i'm going to go....maybe take something for my headache.
loves your little invisable friend
Haley Bennett

more song...hour...thing

2004-09-23T15:24:00.000-04:00

"Trapped under ice
Comfortably cold
I've gone as low as you can go
Feel no remorse
No sense of shame
Time's gonna wash away all pain
I made a god out of blood
Not superiority
I killed the king of deceit
Now I sleep in anarchy
Sacrifice to the cause
Turn your code into law
Compensate to validate the loss
Take a thief
Nail him to a cross
Gospel of rage
Faction of hate
Deviate from the absolute
Born of revenge
Raised on cement
Chaos created government
I made a god out of blood
Not superiority
I killed the king of deciet
wake me up in Anarchy."- KMFDM "Anarchy"

"Ready steady stop
Hurry up and wait
The tick tick ticking of the clock
Delineates your fate
What I don't see I don't know
What I don't know I don't want
What I don't want I don't need
What I don't need I don't feel
What I don't fee I don't say
What I don't say I don't do
What I don't do I don't like
What I don't like I waste" - KMFDM "Waste"

"I have come to rock your world
I have come to shake your faith
Anathematic Anarchist
I have come to take my place
I am your apocalypse
I am your belief unwrought
Monolithic juggernaut
I'm the illegitimate son of god"- KMFDM "Stray Bullet."

"Ask not What you can do for your country
ask what your country did to you
the only reason your still alive is because someone has decided to let you live
We owe so much money we're not broke we're broken
we're so poor we can't even pay attention.
So what do you want do you want, you want to be famous and rich and happy but your terrifed you have nothining to offer this world nothing to say and no way to say it but you can say it in three langauges." -KMFDM -"Dogma"

"The stars will cry
The blackest tears tonight
And this is the moment that I live for
I can smell the ocean air
And here I amPouring my heart onto these rooftops
Just a ghost to the world
That's exactly
Exactly what I need
From up here the city lights burn
Like a thousand miles of fire
And I'm here to sing this anthem
Of our dying day
For a second I wish the tide
Would swallow every inch of this city
As you gasp for air tonight
I'd scream this song right in your face
If you were here
I swear I won't miss a beat
Cause I never
Never have before" Story of the Year "Anthem of our dying day."

"now how should i feel
i think i feel alright
so tell me where to aim
i'm blinded by the light
this world is crazy
my dreams are fading
no one can save me
i want my life
and when i wake up you'll be here
and it will be the way it was"- Smile Empty Soul "I want my life"

"too many weeds in the flowers
too many pills in the pharmacy now
too many bugs in the shower
there's too much shit in the air we breathe now
there's too much anger inside me
there's too much scarring when i bleed
there's too much therapy i need
there is no god that i have seen" - Smile Empty Soul "Therapy"

"stand there with your ball and chain
bitch about what you've created
caught up in the masquerade
you've already been paid and made it
so don't pretend to know what it's like
to feel the things that we must live through
you only see with your dying eyes
there's only one thing i will ask of you
can you take this life
can you make it right do you have the words to say to make it all go away
you act so wise
and so refined
you can keep your lies cos i'm
never gonna go your way
promises of a better life
but what's wrong with the one i'm leading
everyone has a different fight
a different wound that keeps them bleeding
so what's wrong with a little fun
everybody needs to find their something
is this how your gonna treat your son
f*** 'em up and give em nothing
[chorus]
everybody needs to find their own way through life
everybody needs to find their own way"- Smile Empty Soul "Your way"

Yea...i like KMFDM and Smile Empty Soul....i'm insane like that...
so well that's my update...besides the fact that i am DONE with "no easy answers: the truth behind death at columbine" great book...everyone should go out and read it because it rocks....*smiles*
ah well talk to ya'll later.
oh, yea...and i like pipe staging....it doesn't wobble. and moutain dew code red...rocks..yummmmmmmmmmmmmmmm that and Vinilla Pepsi...they are the only soda's i'll buy if they are there...unless there is something else i want to try...but most of the time i'll buy one of them....i don't like plain soda anymore...it's much better when there is flavor.
Haley.

oh well

2004-09-14T22:13:00.000-04:00

i was going to update...september 11th but i was sidetracked...why you ask..because it would have been Dylan Klebold's 23rd birthday and because of all the sadness about the day anyway.
The morning of September 11th (acutally 12:00am) i completly changed my views on how dylan died...i now think he was shot by a cop. his tec-9 is in his right hand....the wound on his left temple. the path of the bullet is slightly downward...now who would tilt thier head and shoot themselves in the head in the left temple with their right hand...come on kids, make the motion...tell me how hard it is. and his origional possion makes you think to, he was on Eric's knee....now why would he be close enough to fall on Eric's knee??? and who would have kicked him over? ahh the mysteries of the columbine shooting that we will never know..
i am getting "no easy answers: the truth behind the death at columbine" YAY!!!!! should be here tomorrrow or the next day...along with a german book...be prepared for German in posts Ich bin gott!!!!!! Sort of like that...i love that saying i thank Eric Harris for making me like that saying...haha... it means "i am god" i'm getting a whole bunch of books actually, i can't wait...of course that means i'll have to start school work, which shouldn't bother me if i have stuff that i like doing. lets see, i'm learning about: Medievil history, U.S history, U.S. consatution, U.S government, Algebra (just because i can even though i'm only in 8th grade) and German, and of course a whole bunch of other math. i can't wait for it all to get here...fun fun fun....ha ha ...GERMAN!!!!!!!! Then me and Rachel (person from Livejournal) can talk to each other in German...haha..should be a lot of fun.

Wedding Day

2004-09-04T07:55:00.000-04:00

Well Rachel and Jeff are getting married today, at 1:00pm it'll be awesome, i'm a Junior bridesmaid, haha, one step up from flower girl, i have to walk and dance with Jerry (he's my fathers age) but i know him so it's ok, mom and i have to go over to Mary Mars' (jeff's mom's) house at 8:30 to get all ready with all of the other girls, Dad and the rest of the guys are going to Jimmy's (jeff's brother/best man)
can't wait, i get to dance with corinne and casey since they're coming, and i get to sit at the head table (i didn't last time i was in the wedding those were the disadvagtages of being a flower girl, haha, wheee. it'll be awesome, we'll be out really late probably, we have really pretty dresses they are plain tank top style sleeves, looooong navy blue, and these shoes that are a little too small so i have to try not to kill my self (Nevermind that they are heals)
i like my new cd it's good, it's Crossfade, which i thankfully heard on Octane satalite radio one night and i fell in love with them, haha
"hey hey watch me wave goodbye to yesterday, nothing left in my way
hey hey i've been saved with sun shining on my pain getting me through this day
hey hey watch me wave goodbye to yesterday nothing left in my way feel so good to say so far away i've been changin but you'll never see me now."- Crossfade so far away

i'm happy for rachel and jeff, i mean i can't picture them marrying anyone else but each other, they are like family, Jeff, Rachel, Jerry, Dave, Jodi, Casey, Corinne, they are all like family, even though there's like three diffrent familes there, and you can't forget little jimmy and Jayme, i've known jimmy since he was two or three, and they both hang on me, all the time, but i love them anyway. I love all of the people that i have found are true friends, even if we haven't known them for very long, Corinne and Casey are true friends to me, Jeff and Rachel are, Jerry is, all of the comeaus (counting corinne and case and amanda) are, i love our "newfounded friends" we have known them all for a few years, well i should go get ready it's 8:09 so i might want to think about making sure i have everything, alright,
see ya,
love ya,
have fun,
Haley.

2004-08-29T10:43:00.000-04:00

Dylan Bennet Klebold......
was still alive....maybe not concious but still alive, until he was rolled onto his back into the posision you can find him in the the suicide pics....that's where he died....he may not have felt it but i mean....it wasn't instant...
at least he didn't have to bleed to death or suffer for very long, and even if he did he may not have been concious of it which i guess is a settling feeling...at least he is in a better place and or at peace...
someone rolled him over....who was it??????? unless it was himself...which i can see clearly...i mean i can imagine him rolling himself over, unless he wasn't concious which he probably wasn't...then i mean...who could of done it, eric probably didn't kick him off of his leg, because eric was already dead....so who was it??? if there were cammra's in the libary there would be so much solved...jeffco wouldn't have to question who shot dylan....or any of that crap...but i can't imagine even watching a tape like that... that's where the most people died....where the most happened...that was there most of the blood was....no, i doubt even the forensic crime scene people would want to see that.
i have come to the conclusion...
eric harris died the right way...even if it was because of a bullet...it was instant...instant death...is the best kind.

R.I.P Eric David Harris
R.I.P Dylan Bennet Klebold

you can hate me for symapthing with murderers...but i don't chose my obsessions..they just happen. and if you want how i felt last night and a little more on what i think of it....click on the link that leads to my live journal... i love you all.

song hour...again

2004-08-25T21:52:00.000-04:00

ok........bits of cool songs.... again...

"we may lose and we may win,
though we will never be here again
so open up i'm climbing in
so take it easy
*instermental break thing*
well i been runnin down the road
tryin to losen my load got a world of trouble on my mind." - the egales take it easy

"readin books about science a smart star
but is that enough no
cuz smart dont' make you cool
he's not invisable anymore
with his fathers nine and a broken view
since he walked through the classroom door
he's all over prime time news
Mary's got the same sized hands as Marlyin Monroe
she put her fingers in the imprints
at manns chinise thearter show
she could have been a movie star
never got the chance to go that far
life was stole
now we'll never know
they were crying to the camrea
he showed up to the parties he was hanging in
guys were putting him down pullin him round
now i wish i could have talked to him
gave him the time of day
not turn away
if i would have been the one to maybe go this far
he might have stayed at home
playing angry chords on his guitar
he's not invisable anymore
with his baggy pants and his legs in chains
since he walked through that class room door
every body knows his name"- Kelly Rowland "Stole" (it is an R&B, pop like song but it's cool)

"Columbine flower bloom
tenderly i sing to you
Columbine roseblood red
heartbreak overflows my head
Columbine flower bloom
Columbine there's hope for you
Columbine friend of mine
turn our pain
to your gain
keep our hearts
on the mark
Comfort us with your love
love again
Comfort me said sweet realisse
come from you
where it's true
i hide my self in you
can you still hear the raging guns
ending dreams of precious ones." Jonathan and Stephen Cohn "Friend of mine (columbine)" (this song is not a famous song, and i probably should not be using it, but i do have the song on my computer and i really like it, but i do not have permission to be using it, it's very good though, and i am very sorry if anyone is offended by me putting this in here.)

"see you sitting next to the window in the bedroom
she breaks down (breaks down)
crying over something
staring into nothing
she's afraid now (Hey now)
wanting, needing, hunting
it's killing me
faking what is happened
to live the life like that man
i'll break down
it's fake now
will you will you
love me tomorrow
so will you will you
stay with me today
findin out a reason
to fight the way she's feeling
she breaks down (breaks down)
goin through the motions
and holding on to hopes and the dreams now (some how)
shaken mistaken forsaken
it's killing me
wishin you can change
but it's always been this way
if you leave now
i'll drown." - P.O.D "will you"

" you hurt youself and blame me when you fall
co-depentant
you have lost lost control and crashed into a wall
co-dependent your co-dependent
i am a bad seed
it fills my own needs
I never was scared
to take my chances
i see the downfall
cuz i'm not so sure
i've got my own life
and you can't stand it." Adema- "co-dependent"

"i don't want your sympathy
i just need a little theropy
at least that's why they say to me
hey-ho lets go
i'm gonna start a riot you don't wanna try it
one two f*ck you
i don't wanna be like you
can't you see it's killing me
i'm my own worse enamy
knock me down i'll keep on movin
it's the art of losin." - American Hi-Fi "the art of losin"

"I never really wanted you to see
the screwed up side of me that i keep
locked inside of me so deep
it always seems to get to me
i nevre really wanted you to go
so many things you should know
i guess now for me there's just no hope
i never meant to be so cold
what i really meant to say
is i'm sorry for the way
i am
i never meant to be so cold
never meant to be so cold." - Crossfade "cold"

i guess that's it for now....peace out...
love ya..
Haley

p.s: i started typing this at 9:52pm it is now 10:44pm...almost an hour.

uhh

2004-08-23T22:50:00.001-04:00

Less Than Jake is a good band, they are punk, but i like them, along with Crossfade, who are not punk but hard rock, they have an awesome song that can be found in my live journal.

"i've come to my senses
that i've become senseless
and i could give you lessions how to ruin your friendships
every last conviction i've smoked them all away
i drank my frustrations down the drain out of the way
so i sit and wait and wonder
"does anyone else feel like me"
Someone so tired of their routines and disappearing self-esteems

I'll sing along,
Yeah with every emergency,
Just sing along,
I'm the king of catastrophies,
I'm so far gone,
That deep down inside I think it's fine by me,
I'm my own worst enemy

i could be an expert on co-dependency
i could right the best book on under age tragedy
i've been spending my time at the local liquor store
and i've been sleeping nightly on my best friends kitchen floor.
So I sit and wait and wonder,
"Does anyone else feel like me?"
I'm so over-dosed on apathy and burnt out on sympathy.

I'll sing along,
Yeah with every emergency,
Just sing along,
I'm the king of catastrophies,
I'm so far gone,
That deep down inside I think it's fine by me,
I'm my own worst enemy

Let the meaning slip away
Lost my faith in another day,
Self deprication seems okay,
I never thought I'd make it anyway

I'll sing along,
Yeah with every emergency,
Just sing along,
I'm the king of catastrophies,
I'm so far gone,
That deep down inside I think it's fine by me,
I'm my own worst enemy

i'm my own worst enamy x5" - less than jake 'the science of selling yourself short'

i like Less than Jack, the song above...is really awesome.....haha...i love it...it's cool.
uhh...well i guess i have nothing to say.
love,
Haley

time for an update.

2004-08-21T12:11:00.000-04:00

i decided it was time for an update, i'm home..i've been home....anyway. uh.........i really can't think of anything to say, i have an aniversary party tonight, i think that's about it for today......i mean.....it's raining.....does it EVER STOP!! we didn't really have much of a summer, sadly.
Time for a papa roach song *laughs evily*

Somewhere beyond happiness and sadness
I need to calculate
what creates my own madness
and I'm addicted to your punishment
and you're the master
and I am waiting for disaster

I feel irrational
So confrontational
To tell the truth I am
getting away with murder
it isn't possibleto ever tell the truth
but the reality is I'm getting away with murder
(Getting away, Getting away, Getting away)

I drink my drink and I don't even want to
I think my thoughts when I don't even need to
I never look back cause I don't even want to
and I don't need to
because I'm getting away with murder

I feel irrational
So confrontational
To tell the truth I am
getting away with murder
it isn't possibleto ever tell the truth
but the reality is I'm getting away with murder
(Getting away, Getting away, Getting away with murder) - Getting away with murder - papa roach.

i love that song.....

ok....well....................uhhhhhhhhhhhh.......... i think that's all i have to say....see ya..................love ya........Namarie

Hale

time for an update.

2004-08-21T12:02:00.000-04:00

well............uh-huh

2004-08-16T17:05:00.000-04:00

so we come home tomorrow, wedding was yesterday, went ridding around today, saw my cousins Joey and Victoria, and such, wedding was fun, sort of boring, i have figured out i am not having a curch wedding, it takes to long.
Tori gave me her Nirvana's greatist hits cd because she didn't listen to it, it's cool, i like it.
must go, cousins are here, byee see ya tomrrow.
love,
Haley

watch out Rhode Island, here we come

2004-08-12T22:40:00.000-04:00

so, leaving tomorrow morning....haha... uhh...yea...not much to say really, cept i'll talk to you all while i'm there, maybe.
uhh yea.
Zan, i'm going to try to get my parents to let me hang out with you it's a little shaky as of now, don't ask, my parents, are, well, parents, i think that is the best way to discribe it.
so well, i 'll see you all when i get back, in four days, haha not long, i get to argue about Columbine with my cousin, hah...weeeeeeeee. send me lots of e-mail to come back musicfreak18@vermontel.net or myband_letsplay@yahoo.com *writes Reb and voDKa on her new notebook* i'm going to be ready to terroize RI when i get there, *evil laugh* soo happy *graffiti's both inside covers of her new notebook* i'll talk to you. i'll update, maybe, i might be able to. haha.
ok.
so....bye...i guess since i have nothing else to write.
R.I.P VoDKa
R.I.P Reb
my cousin can disagree as much as he wants, they need crosses. like Zan said, lets build our own!!
Ade (goodbye)
love,
Haley.

song hour with, Lostprophets, A.F.I, New found golry, and more..

2004-08-11T14:59:00.000-04:00

going to RI in two days...on Rachels Birthday the 13th, it's too bad really, i feel bad about not being here for her birthday, even though she'll probably be working, so i guess it's ok..ok...SONG HOUR!
peices of songs...haha..

"the storms i've weathered
you know they don't seem to be as bad,
if you think there hope fr0m here and there's a life you should now have.
i don't have answers and no questions bring to mind
so here i've ended up there's no more signs and the roads are blocked on me.
it just doesn't that easy,
i don't know where to go, i don't what to be, i don't know how to change from being me. i dont' know what to say, maybe another i'll stop getting lost and find my way, all i know is gone.
i see no reason to move on,
i see no reason to move on." - Lostprophets 'i don't know'

"tonight i felt stronger, inside of your ways, it takes a lot to get home, but it's ok when the light is always on, i just want you to understand, there's no need to keep waiting, another day in another hand it could be so diffrent, a letter to me your wasting time you know you could be you know you could try but tonight you'll get it right you will make a diffrence.
Tonight, Tonight, Tonight
I Feel stronger,
Goodbye, Goodbye, Goodbye, I
f i could see through, even so far awayIts all you need too,
make it through another day.
Surprise, Scream your heart out, Inside you will hand down, Today it all seems too strong If only you tried you would move on" - Lostprophets 'goodbye tonight'

"An empty chair at all the tables
And I'll be seeing you when all my days boil down
But it's better where you're going anyway
I'm sorry I heard about the bad news today
It's really hard to get through
Tough times and long days
But it really just depends on the season
For now we'll say goodbye We know it's not the last time
I've lost the best part of my day
But it's better where you're going anywayT
his is the last thing
I will remember It's better where you're going anyway" - New found Glory -'sonny'

"I'll lay me down tonight
Much further down
Watch stars go out tonight
On sinking groundI'll lay me down,
I'll lay me down
(What follows) me as the whitest lace of light
(Will swallow whole) just begs to be imbrued?
What follows has lead me to this placewhere I belong, with all erased" - A.F.I 'Girls not Grey'

"And we laugh till we cry Always so hard to say goodbye (good bye) And we all sit round here in our home town It's so good like this, these are times we'll miss The memories, I hope they'll never fade
Glowing embers lie across the sky
Here by my side, in my summer,
our last summer
The world passes by in my summer, our last summer
The light makes shadows fall, surrounded by each other
Alive to watch it all, the view through our last summer
The view from our last summer...
I would stop time to stay with you
I would stop time so we don't move
I would stop time
I would stop time
I would stop time to keep you" - Lostprophets "last summer"

I'm seein red Don't think you'll have to see my face again
don't have much time for sympathy
Cuz it never happened to me
You feelin blue now
I think you bit off more than you could chew
And now it's time to make a choice
And all I wanna hear is your voice...
So follow the leader down And swallow your pride and drown
When there's no place left to go
Maybe thats when you will know
Follow the leader down And swallow your pride and drown
When theres no place left to go
Maybe thats when you will know
And foolish lies well can't you see I tried to compromise
Cuz what you say ain't always true And I can see the tears in your eyes And what you said now
Can't stop the words from running through my head And what I do to get through to you
But you'd only do it again
So follow the leader down And swallow your pride and drown
When there's no place left to go
Maybe that's when you will know
Follow the leader down And swallow your pride and drown
When there's no place left to go
Maybe that's when you will know
Well I confess, I don't know what to make from all this mess
Don't have much time for sympathy
But it never happened to me
You Feelin down now
I don't know where i'll be when you come around
And now it's time to make a choice, And all I wanna hear is your voice... - Unwritten Law 'Seein red'

All really great songs, Lostprophets have a lot more good songs, i did although just get their cd, well...byeeeee.
Love,
Haley

Well...their back

2004-08-09T17:36:00.000-04:00

Have you ever had one of those things, where you just wish it would go away and you never had to think about it again, but you don't want it too, it's like you would miss it insanely if it did go away? that discribes my thing about Eric Harris and Dylan Klebold, and Columbine, i mean i just wish i didn't have to think about it all the time i wish i didn't sometimes, but if they went away i would "miss" them...it's weird. it's like, i'm afraid to lose someone who's already dead, two people i've never met. it's so...weird. it goes away and i don't have a hunger to write about it, or really do anything that has to do with it, something else replaces it, for the time being, then it comes back, i just have to think about it well enough and see: "Reb and VoDKa" somewhere and it all comes flooding back, it sucks, but at the same time it doesn't and it may seem confusing, it confuses me too but i think part of it makes perfect sense.
Columbine was a stupid mistake, Littleton needed a better school system, a better police system, and all that, most of all they needed the shooting to show them they needed all of it, they needed to be showen they needed to pay more attention, that they needed to be nicer to other kids, schools all over make the same mistakes, but the results aren't as drastic, or they catch it quickly, around 97, 98,0r 99, the kids in Middletown Elementary were picking on other kids. one of my best friends was in 5th or 6th grade, and some of the other kids would call her and other people Lesbians and laugh at her when she dropped stuff, that was ELEMANTRY SCHOOL!!! It sucked, because i was in 1st or 2nd grade and when i tried to stand up for her i got "no you can't help her, you have to stay in line." in that older kid way that makes you listen, i remember who it was who would laugh at her, i was friends with her younger sister. i don't know why they picked on Becky, maybe because she got grossed out easily, cried easily, was basically best friends with a 7 year old. i feel bad for her, but she's good now, i mean, she's a normal kid, but i bet she still gets picked on, because kids never stop. and that is what drives other kids to the edge, that was one of the reasons Eric and Dylan killed people at Columbine, because kids never let up, they need to build up self-estem so they degrade other kids and suck them dry of theirs, putting them in power, and there is a lesson in stuff like Columbine, if you keep pushing, eventually they are going to snap, and everyone is going to pay for it, a harsh and sad, but true reality. i fell bad for them (eric an dylan) they would have had futures, but they were pushed to far, so no one will know what future they could have had, their future belonged to guns and pipe bombs, and it was shattered probably the momment they walked into Columbine High School and started hanging out, the momment they were called Gay, and all that crap, it's so stupid.
Columbine was not preventable, it was before the torment pushed them, but no one saw it, no one saw the torment pushing them toward the breaking point, all they saw was the snap. thats why it wasn't preventable, because people dont' look close enough to see the real truth, and it's sad, there is probably some kid out there planning the next Columbine for the same reason: They were pushed to the breaking point, and if they do it they can prove they were better then the others, because all the people who terroized them won't be known thoughout the country, at least it's unlikely, they will do it to prove themselves.
maybe someday we'll learn, it's not in if the school has sicurity cammera's or metal decectors, that won't help, it's teaching kids that they are not better just because they think they are, that if you push hard enough, it will break, it's that way with everything, including life, and patince, and of course self estem.
Suicide and Homocide, both dreams of Columbine killers, broken....already snapped, don't push to hard, it will break, it will snap, and all you'll be left with will be the memory of, pushing, snapping, and the times before. Think...just Think before you degrade some one.
I know i pick on people...i know it...but i'm kidding, when people do it and they aren't kidding, even if they are, it can lead to stuff like it, becareful, once you reach the breaking point there is no going back, no turning around, no taking it back, once something has snapped it's nearly impossible to put it back together.
don't push, don't take it, don't snap, don't make others snap, that's the way the world should work with a few extra's thrown in.
Love,
Haley

DISTURBED

2004-08-03T23:25:00.000-04:00

ok........two distured songs full of swears just because they are soooo cool...heavy metal.....sorta with really cool lyrics....yay!!!

Tell me exactlywhat am I supposed to do?
Now that I haveallowed you to beat me!
Do you think thatwe could play another game?
Maybe I can win this time?
I kind of like the misery you put me through.
Darling, you can trust mecompletely.
If you even try to look the other way,
I think that I could kill this time.
Rah! Rah! {x2}
It doesn't really seem I'm getting through to you.
Though I see you weeping so sweetly.
I think that you migh thave to take another taste,
a little bit of hell this time.
Rah! Rah!Lie to me!Rah! Rah!Lie to me!
Is she not right? Is she insane?
Will she now run for her life in the battle that ends this day?
Is she not right?!Is she insane?!
Will she now run for her life now that she LIED TO ME!
You always wanted people to remember you.
You leave your little mark on society!
Don't you know your wish is coming true today?
Another victim dies tonight.
Rah! Rah!Lie to me!Rah! Rah!Lie to me!
Is she not right?Is she insane?
Will she now run for her lifein the battle that ends this day?
Is she not right?!Is she insane?!
Will she now run for her lifenow that she LIED TO ME!
Ramidi ma ma ba di ma!Ramidi ma ma din do!
Ramidi ma ma ba di ma!Ramidi ma ma ba di mo!{all x2}
Is she really telling lies again?
Doesn't she realize she's in danger?
Eeeeeeeyow!
Is she not right?Is she insane?
Will she now run for her life in the battle that ends this day?
Is she not right?! Is she insane?!
Will she now run for her lifenow that she LIED TO ME!
The little bitch,she went and she told A LIE!
Now she will never tell another.A LIE!
The little bitch,
she went and she told A LIE!
NEVER F**KING LIE TO ME - Disturbed- The Game

HA HA cool song

Drowning deep in my sea of loathing
Broken your servant I kneel
It seems what's left of my human side
Is slowly changing in me
Looking at my own reflection
When suddenly it changes
Violently it changes (oh no)
There is no turning back now
You've woken up the demon in me
[Chorus:]Get up, come on get down with the sickness [x3]Open up your hate, and let it flow into me
Get up, come on get down with the sickness
You mother get up come on get down with the sickness
You f**ker get up come on get down with the sickness
Madness is the gift, that has been given to me

I can see inside you, the sickness is rising
Don't try to deny what you feel(Will you give in to me?)
It seems that all that was good has died
And is decaying in me
It seems you're having some trouble
In dealing with these changesLiving with these changes (oh no)
The world is a scary placeNow that you've woken up the demon in me
[Chorus x2] - Disturbed- Down with the Sickness.

ok i lied one more..this is like...my all time favorite Disturbed song...well one of them

Believe, when you lie
You will never need to recognize yourself
To deceive
To remove all chance of doubt and be received
With your lie
The deception is complete when you concede
And decide
To reject your lives, sacrificed to me
Penance can't absolve your sin, into me
Penance can't absolve your sin
All your belief cannot absolve your sin [x2]
Believe, when you lie
You will never need to recognize the source
Of deceit
To renew your faith in God
You must believe, in your lie
The redemption is complete when you conceive
And declineTo release your lives
Sacrificed to me
Penance can't absolve your sin, into me
Penance can't absolve your sinAll your belief cannot absolve your sin [x2]
Reap your life, like you want to recognize, all you've come to
[x2]Reap your life
Veiled in shadow
Recognize Faces of the crucified
I can hear their screams tonight
Ever haunting me
Burn your lie into me
Penance can't absolve your sin, into me
Penance can't absolve your sin
All your belief cannot absolve your sin [x4] - Disturbed - Believe

ok sleep...is good....ta.
Love,
Hale

and there will be music

2004-08-03T15:31:00.000-04:00

IT''S HERE IT'S HERE IT'S HERE!!!!!!!!! it would be my new acousitc BLACK guitar...very happy, mom tuned it, since she had the pactinence to sit and do it...and try to figure it out...haha..it's really pretty, i love it, it's gorgous..and i'm very happy. we were cleaning out mom's car so that it's all clean if they decide to trade it in for another car....i love this car though it's so cool...we've had it since 99 i think, i love it, but hey i loved all of my fathers trucks and was very upset when he got rid of them, i was also sad when mom got rid of her jeep, but the jeep was basically dead and the explorer was newer and nifty and it had a 6 cd changer in the arm rest haha......it's soooooo cool. i want it...but you see i am not old enough to drive nor do i think my parents are going to save it until i am. i do want a four wheeler though...but i have no room to ride it...we'll just make my evil neighbors move, and then someone nice will buy over there and i'll tear up their property....well i can wish can't i?
Ok....well....i'm adding a whole bunch of my parents cds to my computer so i can listen to them...so byeeeeeeeee.
Love,
Haley

mwaaaaaaaaaaaahahahah

2004-07-31T22:05:00.000-04:00

this is part of an e-mail my friend sent to me....haha...so.....i made it shorter (MUCH) and put it on here...
Ok , heres your chance to be as mean (OR NICE!) as possible to me and let all those feelings out. Fill this out about me
YES OR NO?
1. Quiet? :
2.Loud? :
3. Shy? :
4.Weird? :
5. Selfish? :
6. Crazy?:
7. Cute?:
8. nice? :
9. Mean?
10. Rude? :
11. Stupid?:
12. Caring? :
13.A friend? :
14.Talkative? :
15. beautiful? :
16. Creative? :
17. A psycho? :
18. Athletic?
19.Annoying? :
20.Funny? :
21. Hyper? :
22.Laid back?

**JUST SOME QUESTIONS**
23. (a) Do u think I'll get married?: (b) If u do..who do u think I'll marry?
24 When is my birthday?:
25. Where did we meet?:
26. Have you ever had a dream about me?:
27. If you could change one thing about me what would it be?:
28. If u could tell me one last thing what would it be?:
29. If u could ask me anything..what would it be?
30. Do u ever think about me off-line?:
31.Do u wish we were closer?:
32.State your completely honest opinion of me:

sorry it's so long. o and put this in your blog to see what people think of you... haha yea right...ahem...sorry.

BAM!

2004-07-30T12:50:00.000-04:00

i have discovered a very funny show with an increidably hot guy: Bam Margera the show is Viva la bam on mtv every body watch it...it's funny.
he is really hot..cute....hot.....i love him...well not really...and he skateboards......he's awesome...and he likes to get on his parents nerves. haha....ok..uh...i think that's all i REALLY wanted to say......o and my guitar is still not here..HURRY UP FED EX!!!!!!!
i have one last thing to say...BAM IS HOTT!!!!!!
ok.....no more caffine....but i don't think that's why i'm typing this...i think i'm typing this because i need something to do...haha...
I got to meet Zan the other night, she's cool, the village harmony concert was really cool, there was a guy who REALLY gelled his hair up and spiked it..it looked cool, then there was this other guy......he was cute too. ok i have GOT to STOP being boy crazy....grrrr of course i have liked guys since i was two..so i think that is a sign that it's not stoping soon...i'll be like this until i die...that wont' be good... I wanna meet Bam...sorta...i'll just look at him for now though.
lots o love to the only two people who comment...and all the people who read,
Haley

so well uh....yeah

2004-07-29T10:39:00.000-04:00

1. Who are you?(optional can be anon)
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. Do you have a crush on me?
5. Would you kiss me?
6. Describe me in one word.
7. What was your first impression?
8. Do you still think that way about me now?
9. What reminds you of me?
10. If you could give me anything what would it be?
11. How well do you know me?
12. When's the last time you saw me?
13. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
14. Are you going to put this on your blog to see what I say about you?

UGHHHHHHHHHHHHH

2004-07-27T18:10:00.000-04:00

Today.......we went shopping.............for wedding clothes......was about ready to kill people in BJ'S (not a clothing store, second store we went to bargins) i did however get the second summer of sisterhood the sequal to the sisterhood of the taveling pants......i was in a very bitchy mood today, actually i still am somewhat.
Abacrombie and Fitch as the most outrageous prices, it is a true prep store. i saw a Denim skirt there i think it had a belt for $59.50!!!!! Never am i shopping there, give me Hot Topic anyday, i actually have been in hot topic now....i am in love with it. i do however have a good outfit for a wedding which i only half got today. it's this cute green cordery skirt, and my favorite black shirt.....it looks cool i did of course get it at old navy...ok enough shopping talk. in the long run i wanted to kill people today...i did not though i refrained from hurting anyone ( i did although dig my nails in the back of my hand) bad mood today...
well bye
Love the very bitchy,
Haley

mwwwwwwwwwwwwwahhaah

2004-07-27T07:14:00.000-04:00

up way to early, Tori (cousin) and her dad left this morning, they're off to look at UVM, then going back to RI...fun fun...had fun with her last night creating her blog, and my new one...community hopfully, or at least me and her.
still waiting for guitar...maybe it will come soon, i hope so.
you will see new and improved LINKS over in the corner thanks to Nate *thanks Nate, bows to Nate decides she going over board and just thanks him* i never ever ever unless i have to get up this early, but i wanted to say goodbye to my reletives so i got up at 6:30am..whoa....the earliest i have ever gotton up is 4:50am...beat that...although i know most people probably can.
must go, i think i need to write something. I still have yet to meet Susannah, but i must!!! hehehe.
well......ta.
Signed with out even a tincy bit of love,
Haley.

LED ZEPPLIN!!!!!!!!

2004-07-26T11:16:00.000-04:00

haha.....much....uh......song writting again.....i worship Robert Plant and Jimmy Page....i also worship Kurt Cobain but he isn't included in this entry so....too bad.......
any way i have an urge to post Led Zepplin songs.......Don't ask please, i am getting a acoustic...black......yumm.....can't wait...

there's a feeling i get when i look to the west
and my spirt is crying for leaving
in my thoughts i have seen
rings of smoke through the trees
and the voices of those
who stand looking

oooo it makes me wonder
oooo it really makes me wonder

and it's whispered that soon, if we all call the tune
then the piper will lead us to reason
and a new day will dawn for those
who stand long and the forest will echo in laughter

if there's a bustle in your hedgerow don't be alarmed now
it's just a spring clean for the may queen
yes there are two paths you can go by,
but in the long run, there's still time to change the road your on.

your head is hummin and it won't go in case you don't know
the pipers calling you to join him
dear lady can you hear the wind blow and did you know
your stairway lies on the whispering wind.

and as we wind on down the road
our shadow taller then our souls
there walks a lady we all know
who shines white light and wants to show
how everything still turns to gold
and if you listen very hard
the tune will come to at last
when all are one and one is all
to be a rock and not roll

and she's buying the stairway to heaven - Led Zepplin Stairway to Heaven (only part of it)

I worship page and plant.....musical geniuses.......YAY!!!!!!!!!!
they are awesome.....and alive!!! hehe....i love led zepplin....that's all my fathers fault........haha.......Battle of evermore awesome song.....i must go listen to it..........ta..

Song update

2004-07-24T14:02:00.000-04:00

Crowded streets are cleared away
one by one
hollow heros seperate
as they run
your so cold keep your hand in mine
wise men wonder while strong men die

show me how it ends it's alright
show me how defenceless you really are
statified and empty inside
that's alright lets give this another try

if you find your family
don't you cry
in this land of make believe
dead and dry
your so cold but you feel alive
lay your hand on me one last time

show me how it ends it's alright
show me how defenceless you really are
satisfied and empty inside
that's alright lets give this another try

it's alright
it's alright
it's alright
it's alright

show me how it ends it's all right
show me how defenceless you really are
satisfied and empty inside
that's all right lets give this another try.

Breaking Benjamin "so cold"
That is my new favorite song....i think...

send away for a priceless gift
one not suttle one not on the list
send away for a perfect world
one not simply so obsered
in these times of doing what your told
keep these feeling no one knows
what ever happened to the young mans heart
swallowed by pain as he slowly fell apart

and i'm staring down the barrel of a 45
swimming through the ashes of another life
no real reason to accept the way
things have changed
staring down the barrel of a 45

send a message to the amon child
keep your eyes open for a while
in a box high up on a shelf
meant for you no one else
there a peice to the puzzle know as life
wrapped in guilt sealed up tight
what ever happened to the young mans heart
swallowed by pain as he slowly fell apart

and i staring down the barrel of a 45
swimming through the ashes of another life
no real reason to accept the way things have changed
staring down the barrel of a 45

everyone's pointing their fingers
always condeming me
nobody know what i believe
what i believe. -
Shinedown "45"

one more then i'm done......

an old man turned 98
won the lottory died the next day
it's a black fly in your chardenie
it's a death row pardon two minutes to late
and isn't it ironic, don't ya think

it's like rain on your wedding day
it's a free ride when you've already paid
it's the good advice that you just didn't take
and who would have though, it figures

mr play it safe, was afraid to fly,
he packed his suitcase
and kissed his kids good bye
he waited his whole damn life to take that flight
and as the plane crashed down he thought "well isn't this nice"
and isn't it ironic, don't ya think

it's like rain on your wedding day
it's a free ride when you've already paid
it's the good advice that you just didn't take
and who would have thought it figures.

and life has a funny way of sneaking up on you
when you think everythings ok and everythings goin right
And life has a funny way of helping you out when You think everything's gone wrong and everything blows up In your face

a traffic jam when your already late
a no smoking sign on your ciggorete break
it's like 10,000 spoons when all you need is a knife
it's meeting the man of my dreams then meeting his beautiful wife
and isn't it ironic, don't ya think, a little too ironic, yea i really do think

it's like rain on your wedding day
it's a free ride when you've already paid
it's the good advice that you just didn't take
and who would have thought it figures.-
Alanis Morissette "Ironic"

ok that's it for songs....but i might be getting a new acostic guitar!!! i need one!! actually i probably am getting one, either black, blue or red.......maybe naturl but if i can i want a black one!!! hehe
ok....i'm done......no one reads this.

Love,
Hale

Solarfest COME BACK!!!!!!!!!!

2004-07-12T11:43:00.000-04:00

Solarfest is all over and done with until next year (we hope) i slammed my legs in to some roots trying to go off the rope into the water, they hurt, hung out with Carissa, hung out with Sarah Coffmen (whom i haven't seen in a year)found out that she is depressive, but i still love her.
played lots of frisbee, had a lot of fun. i love solarfest, i really do.
i did have to help set up thursday and friday, and i had to help strike last night (stike meaning clean up, make a lot of solarfest stuff go away) although most of the time that was happing i was throwing frisbe's with people i didn't know, it was lots of fun though.
i am wipped out, from 4 days of being on me feet, i slept until 11 past 11 this morning and i'm still really tired. i am going to go find free food, since i've been paying and giving meal tickts for two days.
ta.
Haley

RUNNNNNNNNN AWAYYYYYYYYYYYYY

2004-06-25T17:43:00.000-04:00

There are cousins and aunts and an uncle and a boyfried of an aunt in my house!!!!! ruuuuuuunnnnnnnnnnn awayyyyyyyyyyyyy. Sadly this means i cannnot go to Contra tonight...darn.....Wheaton you still owe me a dance...i don't get to properly say goodbye to nate...darn... but it's ok, cuz i have people to hang around with. muchly fun.
well i love who ever decides to look at this...COMMENT! ok all done.
Bye,
Speedy

2004-06-05T14:12:00.000-04:00

I'm not sure i should update this thing anymore

Whew

2004-05-28T16:26:00.000-04:00

LH is DONE DONE DONE DONE DONE!!!!! and it wasn't all that bad... the baseball game was really cool...well what I saw of it.
and I got a ring made out of a horseshoe nail...and on the way to and from lake George we sung some really funny songs.
WE (my family) GOT LOTR THE RETURN OF THE KING ON DVD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Haley is incredibly happy. I went swimming yesterday in Elfen Lake.... uhh what else to say: o Corinne and Casey came over for a while yesterday...we had lots of fun.
CONTRA T0NIGHT!!!!!!!!! YAY! I think I'm going...But I'm not entirely sure.... I hope I am..
Cerridwen had better be going... or I'm not cuz she is my ride....there and home..
well nothing more to say except that: I want the new Avril Lavigne cd..."under my skin" I want it... and I'm probably going to get it tomorrow, and I might get my ears pierced tomorrow...hmm that would be cool...and my hair cut...maybe..not sure about that yet.
well anyway COMMENT YOU IDIOTS!!!!
Love, Hugs,
Speedy

FAIRLEE!!! ha ha ha

2004-05-22T13:23:00.000-04:00

Well, we did our play in Fairlee, Vermont, it was fun, played ultamite frisbee with people we didn't know.
Cerridwen went with us, she slept over last night, we didn't stay up to late.
we found out that Wheaton basically has a frisbe radar he knows when people are playing frisbee.
i was the odd one out it was the only reason Cerridwen got to go, there was a extra person (not really they just didn't have enough seats) so i got to invite Cerridwen. i do wish that i could have rode with them but i didn't get to, it was sad.
I miss everybody now. and i have a song that i really don't know the words to stuck in my head. "oh no no no no veasta" hehe that's about all i know. well no i know most of the song i just can't under stand most of it.
"we come from the fire, living in the fire go back to the fire turn the world around." that's a diffrent song we sung while we were getting ready to proform.
then we went around in a circle kissing each others checks...that was odd.
and we did some other stuff including:
"the big birdes fly up in the sky, while down in the nest the little birdes rest with a wing on the left and a wing on the right, the little birdes sleep all through the night. SHH YOU MIGHT WAKE UP THE BIRDES, The sun rises up the dew goes away good morning good morning the birdes all say." that gets people really hyper!!
We got to answer questions too, that was interesting.
Monday is the first day of living history (setting up) it starts at....8:00 or 8:30 AM and ends and 7:30 or somewhere around there.
Tuesday is the "acting out" day. and the cruise...i wonder if there are and homeschoolers going on the cruise (besides jake eli cerridwen and i)
i think this is long enough...well see ya.
Love, Hugs.
Haley,
o yea....for some reason i really miss all the other homeschoolers today. i saw a squier van, and i saw robin, but no kids...humph..o and i saw Cerridwen...but still.
it sucks because i won't be able to be at classes on monday....i need hugs!!!
well love ya,
Haley

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

2004-05-19T12:20:00.000-04:00

OK
Living History isn't all that much fun anymore...there is NO way that my documentary group is going to finish the project on time...yuck. Ok we might, but we need to get on a certin computer that has all of our pictures on it, and it needs to run 5 mins not including credits it runs like a minute or so...and with our filming it will run around two, but we need to add a LOT to get it to be long enough. i don't know if it's going to happen.
I'm probably going to miss math...again.
we have to do the play on friday....in Fairle which is two hours away.
i want the cheesecake brownie that is in my kitchen right now, since i am still somewhat hungry, i need it....ok uhhh that's done with.
i don't really have anything to say except: I keep the LOTR Characters ina hat, that sits next to me everywhere i go.
ok i'm leaving now.
Love,
Haley a.k.a Speedy

I MISS MY LINKS!!!!!!!!

2004-05-14T22:05:00.000-04:00

Ok bad thing with new blogger: NO LINKS. and I am not enough of a computer geek to figure out how to get them....NATE!!!!!!!!!!! Nate.. can you PLEASE help me get my links..since you did it for other people...please!! well wait you might not read this...whatever....i feel so excluded wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. i'm done now....this is like when i first started "nate or wheaton help me with links and comments" god, i need to become a computer geek....*goes off, mumbling to herself, again*
love ya,
Speedy A.K.A Haley

well

2004-05-11T22:48:00.000-04:00

I wasn't supossed to update, but i had to... I love the new blogger BULIT IN COMMENTS how cool is that. and better templates..YES YES YES *JUMPS/DANCES* *SCEAMS IN A HIGH PITCHED VOICE* YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!!!!!!!!!!
in other news, i have hurt myself on rocks: i fell skinning one whole side of my lower right leg and under my butt on the same side. it hurts. i fell on gravel, and bigger pointy rocks, at the school, they should be sued.
i like this template.
i found that i'm not alowed to be using blogger (because im 12) but i don't have to put my bith year on the profile so i'm all set...weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. I love this.
Built in comments imagine that. it's awesome, but no links on this template though thats ok.
i'll put links on my other two blogs.....why the heck do i need three blogs?
anyway, good bye and be merry!!!!.
Love,
Haley

Depressed and in need of friends.

2004-05-08T20:23:00.000-04:00

God, i can't even figure out my life anymore. I miss Watson, and my Grandma Pat. I have way too much to do, and the most selfish thing (that i am doing) is that i'm mad because my parents won't let me do stuff i feel horrible for a multitude of reasons i want to go to casey and corinne's and vent cuz they are the only ones who will listen but i can't my dad doesn't want to go back. Jackie's dog Keetna is probably going to get put to sleep i've known that dog since they got her (i think) i'm realizing my life has been screwed up since march of last year.
I need hugs. I need to know that someone actually cares about the fact that i'm have mental breakdowns over here.
i'm crying as i'm typing and i honestly have no idea why. i know i can't go to Casey and Corinne's but i really want to.
i have to admit i'm depressed for stupid reasons, but really i wouldn't call it depression it's more of a mental breakdown/depression/stress. and it's all brought on by stress.
i want someone to just sit by me with their arm around me and comfort me cuz god knows my parents won't.
I really need a hug, a real one would be good. i feel so little.
i really need a friend.
i'm way too stressed out. i have a history report due monday, living history tues-fri history on mon, biology on mon, art on mon , chorus on mon, liturature on wed, math on wed pottary on fri.....i only have one day to write my report...i have to clean my room..... god this sucks i HATE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I want my real life back, the one i used to have when stuff was fun.
o and after all of the other stuff i have to keep up with my school work by doing math every week day....
i want my life.
i need a hug.
someone give me a hug
or at least comment that would be nice.
well i guess i'll go cry to myself in front of the computer somemore.
Love,
Haley

A question

2004-05-02T22:39:00.000-04:00

Why is it that the only people who ever call just to talk to me are Casey and Corinne Comeau? and why is it that i don't normally get e-mail from the people i want to get e-mails from? AHHHHHHH someone should call me just to talk to me someday does everyone know the number? god i feel so alone waaaaaaa. the person who e-mails me the most is Cerridwen. but still it's nice to hear from other people too.
NO BODY LOVES ME!!!!!!!!!!
does anybody love me?
i'm typing my new favorite song here, you can enjoy
"i wanted you to know that i love the way you live
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away
I keep your photograph i know it does me well
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain
Cuz i'm broken when i'm lonesome and i don't feel right when your gone away
your gone away
you don't feel me here anymore
The worst is over now and we can breath again
i wanna hold you high and steal my pain away
there's so much left to learn and no one left to fight
i wanna hold you high and steal your pain.
cuz i'm broken when i'm open and i don't feel like i am strong enough
cuz i'm broken when i'm lonesome and i don't feel right when your gone away."- Seether featuring Amy Lee "Broken"

some how i can realte it to my life right now...i don't know why.
I got to go to contra it was AWESOME.... Wheaton owes me a dance....and he had better remember it too, or i WILL lynch him, just kidding.

so if anyone ever wants to call me to just talk then do it, i have nothing better to do then talk on the phone or computer, or write all of which i can do at the same time, yay for multitasking.
well see ya
Love,
Haley

well

2004-04-30T10:18:00.000-04:00

hey y'all,
I only have a few minutes to write so i'll sumerize fast
I decided i should update before i turn into wheaton or sonja or brittanie the people who never update. Not that anyone cares.
I've been writing too much lately, and not on this computer either, on the laptop which has no internet and in notebooks, and it's mostly been fanfiction about i movie i've never seen, well actually it's a new story same characters. I really don't know what's wrong with me.
Casey has one of my cds and i have one of hers opps, we have to trade today, if we don't i'm going to well i'm not going to do anything.
I'm stuck in a research group with Faith and Ali (SAVE ME) i think today will be the day Faith kills both of us. She has a worse adittude then me (if that's possible)
It's really warm today. I have pottary this afternoon, weeeeeeeeeee not. then i think i have nothing to do unless i can go to contra i really (really really really really really) hope so.
The horkans where here last week, with their friend Cassandra.
uhh and i think that's it, i should go get ready for living history.
Love ya,
Speedy a.k.a the one who needs to stop writing or her computer won't be happy and all her creative juices will dry up.

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeha

2004-04-20T19:07:00.000-04:00

the first time i tried it, it was a sort of diffrent one, but i did change it a little so it's ALL MY FAULT HAHAHAHMWAHAHAH. i'm better now

What Will Be Your Overly Melodramatic Death? by Celaeno
Name:
Gender:
Are you beautiful?
Your death:	After five centuries of quiet life, the misunderstanding age will send hordes of pitchfork-wielding villagers to behead you and impale your heart on a stick.
Your parting words:	"The treasure is buried... death rattle"

Created with the ORIGINAL MemeGen!

I'M BACK!!

2004-04-17T19:11:00.000-04:00

I'm Ba-ack!!!!!!!!!! did ya miss me? I hope so.
I had fun in Cape Cod. I saw a Boston Red Sox game, in Boston, they lost, but at least i saw it. I got a Johnny Damon T shirt ( it has his last name and number on th back) I got to hang out with Jeff, Rachel and Kirk for almost a week, which was lots of fun, we went to a bunch of diffrent beaches, got lost once. went shopping, and just had fun. The last night we were there we heard about a murder (maybe) that had happened that morning (or something like that) in the town we were staying in Rachel locked EVERY single lock on the front door (there's four one on the screen door and three on the regular door) THE RED SOX BEAT THE YANKEES.
"Get-er-dun" Thats Jeffs saying, and now it's THE saying of the 6 of us (my parents, Jeff, Rachel, Kirk, and I) I had fun, I'll see ya later.
Bye.

hmmmm

2004-04-10T22:13:00.000-04:00

nothing to post about, but i'm bored, this post is over.

AGRUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

2004-04-10T13:06:00.000-04:00

My life is so Friggin screwed up, well not really, but i'm mad at it right now.
There was supossed be frisbee, i don't think there was a set time for it, but i was told, 15 minutes and when i get there, THERE'S NO ONE THERE!!!!!!! Isn't anyone considerete enough to wait to see if someone shows up???????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm leaving for Cape Cod tomorrow, i don't want to go, well i do but i really don't at the same time. I mean it's spring break, and i know i'm going to miss something fun. DARNIT!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm sick, with a cold, and pissed. i don't want to go i'm going to miss people. I'm not going to have all that much fun, there are no kids to hang out with, just my parents, and at one point my mom's friends and at another point Jeff Rachel and Kirk. I know it's stupid to not want to go there cuz i know it will be fun, but i DON'T!! And i have to.
Someone tell me your going to miss me, not out of pity you had better mean it, i just feel lonely and mad and just DEPRESSED. someone call me. today i won't be home all week. I'm porbably going to miss Contra, darn. we're coming home on that day, i hope that i can talk my parents into letting me go...........i don't know.
Some one talk to me...
see ya
Love ya,
I'll miss ya,
Haley

NOOOOOOOOOOOO not sickness nooooooooooooo

2004-04-09T10:25:00.000-04:00

I have a horrible nasty painful sore throat. owwwwwwwwwww.
i need a hug, i'm leaving on sunday, going to cape cod for a week, and on thrusday i'm going to boston and a red sox game YIPPIE OWWWWWWWW!!! remind me not to scream until my sore throat is gone.
I'm gonna miss all you people, you should know who you are, but if you don't thats ok too, you will be missed.
I'm hoping to get 30.00 for cleaning my room and if i get it all the way done to day i get 35.00 yummy!! i bet i'll only get five though, but it's deffenitally better than nothing.
People really need to start reading this since i actually update it. I'm unloved *sniff*
If you people want anything in boston or cape cod tell me (nothing expenesive a penny candy would be good)
I found out that ten years ago yesterday Kurt Cobain's body was found in his green house.
But he killed himself on April 5th. For all you people who don't know who Kurt Cobain was: he was the lead singer of Nirvana, the punk/grunge/pop/rock band, they were really good. or at least i think so. He had tryed to kill himself a month before he actually did but it didn't work to well, his wife brought him to the hospital when she found him unconsious. I admire him oddly enough, he was INCREIDABLY talented. I read his Suicide note on the internet last night, and part of it said "for Frances for her lfe will be so much happier without me" Frances is his daughter.
well i'm leaving now
see ya
Love ya I'll miss ya when i go away,
Haley

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

2004-04-05T22:41:00.000-04:00

YO,
it's monday.....wow..already.....anyway, I went to the Farmhouse and saw a movie with some people (the squiers,Jeni, Caitlin, Sarah, Cerridwen,Rob, Carissa, Justine, Carson,i think thats it) we saw "Evelyn" good movie, "you want to steal our women, and our fish" funny too, but i think it was made better by the comments like "smack the nun, smack the nun" and "now that's my kind of nun" and then there was the quote in the movie "just wait until i get you outside" which was from an older lady talking to a nun, it was good.
I had a pretty good day, i'm not sure i really learned anything (well not all that much anyway)
i talked to my neighbors (the evil nasty bad ones) in the deli without even knowing it was them stupid me i. they were nice though (it's just an act, thats what my parents are saying anyway.)
i'm going now.
Love
Haley

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGUUUUUUUUUHHHHHHHHHH

2004-04-04T20:12:00.000-04:00

I am mad.......my 13th birthday is this year, and now all of my dreams of having a party have gone down the drain. I can't have a surprise party because people i would want to be invited wouldn't be, but maybe if i had a surprise party people i want to be invited that my parents won't let me invite would be able to come.
I want to have a sleep over thing, like i have a party party at my house and then we go down to the horkans (they dont live there full time) and sleep over. But i can't invite guys i mean of course i'll live, but, but, but, god damit there are guys i'd want to invite. Good job crushin my dreams almost Six months before they happen mom and dad Great JOB.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH it probably would never have happened anyway but NOOOOOOOO they have to crush them now. DARN THEM.
well i'll go and rant to someone else.
Love ya,
Haley

yay!

2004-04-04T15:30:00.000-04:00

Daylight savings time hasn't screwed up my interior clock yet, i'm a little off of course but thats because it doesn't feel like three o clock, i just haven't screwed up any important things yet, lets just hope i get up on time tomorrow the daylight savings time in fall really messes me up.
it's not snowing like it's supossed to insted it's raining, hey it's better then snow.
I finally wrote Chelsea a letter back, it's been like two months, i'm just not motavated anymore, but at least i update my blog more then once a month unlike some people *coughwheatonandsonjacough* People are gonna lynch them if they don't up date i'm not saying names *coughmecough* i'm now working on putting quotes on my other blog (my third one)
I went to a b-day party for Dave Comeau last night, after going out to eat yummmmm.
Saw Wheaton on the green talked to him about what we would do if he ran out in front of my moms car so that i could beat her to the store, that was yesterday too.
Corinne and i wrote stuff on her mirror with lipstick last night, that was fun one of the things i wrote (that she told me to write) was "i see crandells they're everywhere" and as we were leaving the crandells pulled in i feel bad for corinne she had to face them alone poor her.
well i guess i'll go now.
see ya'll (maybe)
Haley

hehe

2004-04-01T09:19:00.000-05:00

"and now for something completley diffrent: a man with a tape recorder up his nose."-somewhere i'm not sure where though i think it was monty python hmmmm
Not mine i just had the urge to post something, good bye for now.
if you look at the comments on the post about my blog being shunned you'll find out who said it to me. good bye
Love
Haley

YAAAAAAHHOOOOOOOOOOOO

2004-03-31T19:07:00.000-05:00

YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHOOOOOOOOOOOO,
We did our play at long trail today, and we did a REALLY good job, wheaton was great as miss frizz maybe even better then kendra (MAYBE) we had TONS of fun, it was the best proformence we've done. My grandparents watched it my grandfathers deaf but he still watched it, we had lots of fun. (at least i did)
Glen said i did a great job (big complament since he's been on my butt about pete for a week) people could understand me (wow another fist, just kiddin) i'm just really happy about it.
well i have to go eat, Bye bye.
Haley

OOPS

2004-03-30T21:46:00.000-05:00

I screwed up that quiz down there that a sent a link for (stupid me) the "correct" answer for the b-day question is actually the wrong answer, stupid me, it's only ten days off but still i'm not born on 11/14/91 i'm born on 11/24/91 i can't fiz it either stupid me stupid stupid. In other news i'm all alone there's nobody here beside me, they'll be back soon though like tonight soon, i hope.

Well goodbye
Haley

heheheheh

2004-03-30T15:42:00.000-05:00

Take my Quiz on QuizYourFriends.com!

How well do you know me? huhuhuhuhu?huhhuh?????? well go find out!!!!!

uh-oh

2004-03-28T22:10:00.000-05:00

i have come to the conclusion that my blog is being shunned BUT WHY????????? WHAT DID IT EVER DO TO ANYONE??????????

sorry i'm hyper WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

HOOOOOOOOHAW

2004-03-28T21:35:00.000-05:00

I went to the Geniers today, i'm still tired.
Em and i now have 20 inside jokes 17 of which we got today.
we had TONS of fun. we got to have ice cream sundays at like 5:30 before we even had dinner it was awsome and it tasted good.
we were bored for a minute, but after picturing wheaton in the miss frizzle costum dancing around and singing i think we were fine.
We rode on the mule (not the animal a little golf cart kind of thing) it was fun, we play "mashed" and "Camped" fun stuff we just had fun.
but i am still tired.
well i'll go now

WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

2004-03-27T18:07:00.000-05:00

'ello
I am so totally wiped out. Contra last night i danced with cerridwen twice and Laura ( i think) and waltzed with wheaton, and well walked around a lot and other stuff, i played Ultamate Frisbee with the homeschoolers today (for a little i was late and we ended not long after i got there) walked from the green to the asches (longer then it seems or shorter) had play practice, o and i stayed up really late last night because when i got home the comeaus and the crandells were here, and then i sat in bed until like 2:30 in the morning. PETE IS LACKING ENERGY BUT STILL GOOD!!! my back hurts i think i need to stand up stright more often if i can.
I had lots of fun today no matter how wiped i am, it was awesome.
My dad sat outside in the car for two hours waiting for us to get done with play practice since he wasn't smart enough to go in and ask how long it would be ARRRRRRRUUUUUUGGGGGGGHHHHHHHH. Well food awaits my presence good bye.
Love
Haley

YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2004-03-26T09:34:00.000-05:00

hey,
No one reads this but o well.
I'm probably going to contra again tonight (i hope) much fun (i hope)
i do a lot of hoping these days my whole life consistes of hoping (spell check)
but thats beside the point
wait what is the point i don't know, and it's my blog entry so that can't be good ah well i dont think it matters all that much seeing as no body ever reads this EVER. hehheheh.
Emily G and i made up a new name for me "the gone pschyo unloved lunatic monkeydoodle mistress" you steal it i hunt you down and yell at you for a long time since it is in quotation marks so if u take it u get yelled at. humph.
Any way i might get to go to contra tonight and i think that was the point of the whole entry so good bye
love.
"the gone pschyo unloved lunatic monkeydoodle mistress"

the update that no one will ever read

2004-03-23T12:12:00.000-05:00

What would you all do if i was a tomato? and would you still love me if i was a tomato?
We had play practice insted of chorus yesterday. and a biolagey test, i wonder how i did.....
anyway, our play practice went good, even thought the blocking was kind of messed up cuz we didn't have the music. but on the line part we were good. we are proforming at "the long school" aka long trail high school next week.
I can't wait for summer since Sonja might be coming. I wish Britt could come for part of the summer but thats not going to happen it would be really cool though.
i found out that if i was a tomato, i would be eaten, squashed, and britt would freak out and only wheaton would love me if i was a tomato. but hey thats ok. i don't want to be eaten or squished.
i got the new pink cd from Emily G today, she burned it for me.
Clavin thinks he could beat up Wheaton. *coughyea rightcough* of course i don't know if i can actually see either of them actually fighting, but it could happen.
I'm hungrey, and listening to my new cd, and well i guess i'm sorta bored.
Cerridwen fell down our stair last night, not fun. but we were laughing about it. she was laughing too i wasn't laughing at her or anything. she killed her tail bone.
The clock in the 6th grade class room this morning was upside down or as scotty put it "topsy turvy". well i guess i'll go find something to do.
O i got to go to contra on saturday, it was LOTS and LOTS o fun. I'll deffinitally go again.
Well bye.
Love,
Haley

well well well

2004-03-19T13:45:00.000-05:00

Hello,
Living history is weird, but fun i get to see Emily G everyday which is really cool since i don't see her very much. I might get to go to contra dance tomorrow if i can get a ride. It might not be my thing but hey it can't hurt to try, unless it can.
I didn't get to play my song at LH (living history) today like i should have been able too, but Malindi didn't either. i was in the biggest group too so............
Well i'm going to go find something to do.
Bye
Haley

Sadness

2004-03-16T18:30:00.000-05:00

It is offically a year since my grandma Pat died tomorrow would have been her 88th birthday had she lived to her 87th. I miss her, a lot, i remember sitting outside in the car in the hospital parking lot at 11 something on march 16th 2003 when my mom and dad came out and i opened the door and my mom said "she died." and well i don't think i broke down or anything i mean i cried but i kinda didn't believe it i mean Gramma was sick lots of times and she always bounced back and the one time we really thought she was going to be ok since she wasn't all that sick when we went to Rhode Island for her birthday. she went in to a coma baiscally well the hospital people put her in a coma but still and then she died i couldn't go in the hospital and my parents didn't make me but i do remember sitting outside the hospital with my cousin and my other cousin's girlfriend. man it just sucks i miss her i miss watson well at least i have friends or at least i think i have friends
I love you all
Haley

SmarterChild is well uhh strange

2004-03-14T21:41:00.000-05:00

I have to prove that robots are worse than humans

xxElvenArcher18: well duh
SmarterChild: Duh yourself.
xxElvenArcher18: no
SmarterChild: No prob.
xxElvenArcher18: u are weird
SmarterChild: I know.

and later on.............
xxElvenArcher18: u need mental help
SmarterChild: Whatever...
xxElvenArcher18: i'm kiddin
SmarterChild: What?
xxElvenArcher18: Frank T Hopkins
SmarterChild: Sure. In a little while.

he's a weird-o and he agrees with me, the only thing is: being called a weirdo or weird or a freak or anything like that isn't a bad thing actually if i call you weird it's proably a good thing.
well good bye
the movie Hidalgo is good very good
Love (not like that)
Haley the monkeydoodle

OOOOOOOO

2004-03-11T17:51:00.000-05:00

A guy was driving when a policeman pulled him over. He rolled
down his window and said to the officer, "Is there a problem,
Officer?"
"No problem at all. I just observed your safe driving and am
pleased to award you a $5,000 Safe Driver Award. Congratulations.
What do you think you're going to do with the money?"
He thought for a minute and said, "Well, I guess I'll go get that
drivers' license."
The lady sitting in the passenger seat said to the policeman,
"Oh, don't pay attention to him - he's a smartass when he's drunk
and stoned."
The guy from the back seat said, "I TOLD you guys we wouldn't get
far in a stolen car!"
At that moment, there was a knock from the trunk and a muffled
voice said, "Are we over the border yet?"

There is this one and more away messages and jokes and stuff on www.iconator.com and no i didn't make that one up.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

2004-03-08T08:23:00.000-05:00

The roads here are/were bad. Amy Wright was/is here and so was Robin, both of them were on their way to rutland. we had like two cars off, and three people pull into our drive way for one reason or another. I don't know if there are classes or not but i'll find out.
IT'S SNOWING NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.
I woke up at 7am this morning it's a mricle, i got up at 8am though, but it's earlier than normal, well i'll leave now-
Love (not like that)
Haley

la

2004-03-04T15:10:00.000-05:00

lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala WHERE IS EVERYONE!!!!!!!!!!??????????????????????
lalalalalalalalala

Monkeydoodle

2004-03-04T15:05:00.000-05:00

THE GINIERS ARE BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I went out to lunch with my ma and her friend Chris (chris is a girl don't let your minds wonder)
it was fun and well just another boring day in the life of Haley Kenyon, well good bye and MONEKYDOODLE-
Love ya (not like that)
Haley

UNLOVED

2004-03-03T18:16:00.000-05:00

Wow, today i found that no one actually looks at this, darn, that sucks, well actually Wheaton doesn't look at it , other people might, but then again Wheaton doesn't look at anyones unless he was lying to me.
Cerridwen is becoming frusterating, she is using this character that i made up in her story, MY character MINE, i was O.K with it at first but now i'm kinda ify about it cuz she is kinda screwing up what my character does and stuff like that, i mean yea it's her story she can write it anyway she wants, but shouldn't i get a say too? should i?
I went to Math today at the Chila's it was ok, i'll go again, i have no literature homework i just have to re-write the thing i wrote last week cuz i don't like it, it won't be hard at all since i have an idea, don't ask me why i even bother updating it's not like anyone ever looks at this thing.
right now i feel like no one cares what i say or anything in that sence, i mean even if i tell cerridwen i don't like her using my character she'll still use her, and i just well feel like depressed and like i need a hug and a reasuring word someone to tell me i am loved at that i have friends and that i'm not left out, i try to tell myself that but well it doesn't work. I feel like i'm missing something, i don't know what, just something, it's like all the other homeschoolers are so close and i'm on the outside looking in, it sucks. I miss Watson, and My Grandmother, and i almost feel like i'm going to cry.
on a lighter note THE LORD OF THE RINGS THE RETURN OF THE KING WON 11 OSCARS, YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
heres the list of what they won for
Best Art Dircetion (yay!
Best Director (yay peter jackson!)
Best Costum Disign (O yea)
Best Film editing (yea sure it's 3 hours and 15 minutes long)
Best Make-up (YES YES YES, John Rhys Davies (Gimli) was algergic to his face prostecitcs)
Best Origonal Music Score (yay Howard Shore!)
Best Origonal Song (YAY Annie Lenox)
Best sound mixing
Best Adapted Screen Play (thank you John Ronald Rual Tolkien (J.R.R) You Rock)
Best Visual Effects (IT'S AN OLIPHONT AND A HUGE ARMY OF ORCS AND THEY ARE CGIS! (Computer generated Images)
and finally.. DUN DUN DUN
BEST PICTURE (YAY! *THROWS LOTS OF CONFETTI AND SCREAMS VERY LOUD* Thank you peter, thank you fran, and phillipa, and berry, and all the others and the pefect cast and most of all J.R.R TOLKIEN for making it all possible with out him there would be no lotr books there for no movie go figure.
i'm now sad cuz i was just thinking about J.R.R Tolkien who never got to see the movies made, And thinking about how he didn't get thanked at the oscars even though he's dead he deffenitly disevered to be thanked so: THANK YOU JOHN RONALD RUAL TOLKIEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Thanks to eveyone who actually cares about me enough to read my rambling, i Love u all (no not like that)
Love-
Haley

Blue Streaks

2004-02-25T15:50:00.000-05:00

I streaked my hair with blue wash out hair color and i like it it's really cool! i wish it was permenent but it's not, it's a good thing i did it today or no one would have ever seen them. Someday i'm gonna dye my whole head some strange color with permenent dye and then grow it out i want to scare people i tried today but streaks aren't weird enough and they don't show up that great in my hair cuz my hair is darkish. i am continuing my hunt to find cheap converse all star high tops, so if anyone knows where they sell them cheaper than $40.00 tell me it will be apreciated.
Sonja: i am working on that story still but when i find a good palce to stop i'll send it to you. sorry about maybe having to move but hey Kanses is closer to VT then AZ is right!
we had literature today fun fun fun, we started reading witness by Karen Hesse, we are doing it so that everyone in our class is portarying one of the characters since that is how it is written, it is really fun, i did my assignment that was due two weeks ago and read it actually i had two of them i only read one though.
I LOVE HAVING BLUE STREAKS IN MY HAIR!!!!!
well i should go since i have stuff to do, i'm not exactally sure what but i have stuff to do see ya

- Haley Nicole Kenyon (haha middle names are cool!)

Mondays

2004-02-23T18:54:00.000-05:00

YO,
Today is monday, and monday is the day the homeschoolers do classes, History, Biolagy, Art, Chorus, thats what we do O and lunch I can't forget lunch it's the most important part of monday, well almost it is important since i rarely eat breakfest, now is the time that you can throw things at me and call me weird, ok 1..2...3.. throw ok nevermind that.
I have 3 things to read for history, a essay thing to do for wendsday AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH it's evil i tell you, evil!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Mom rearaged the living room today, well actually just switched a few things around, we reagraged it a few months ago so it can stay the way it is for a couple years. or until we get new furnatuire (like thats ever gonna happen) my parents want recliners i doubt we'll get them it's sorta like the cross country trip ma really wants to go on it probably won't happen anytime soon even though we want it to, Sonja will have lived in Kanses a few years before we go anywhere it's sad really.
did u know that my life is uninteresting i did it's boring i have no life none zip zlich it left a while ago like when uhhhhhhhhhh i uhhhhhhhhh i dont' think i ever had a life o yes i remember it now i was in school thats when i had my life when i was in school with Kayla and Becky and all those other people.
Well Casy, Corinne and i have changed our band name it used to be overflow, now it's Everlasting, what one's better overflow used to be taken by a guy from good charlotte when he was in another band but thats another story Everlasting i made up what one is better? lets take a vote.
well anyway i'll go now good bye
Ta

Hey

2004-02-19T18:11:00.000-05:00

i have another blog, that is for stories!!!!!!! nate i need help with the comment thing again!
i got the soundtrack for the lord of the rings the return of the king today the one with eomer on the front and on the other side of the card with eomer on it it has eowyn it's really cool the music is good too, PIPPIN CAN SING!!!!!!!!!!! so can Annie Lennox into the west is a great song! well i'll leave now ooo sonja has a blog too not that any of u that aren't sonja know her but yea the link is OVER THERE>>>>>>>
Well goodbye my fair people

La la la and questions

2004-02-15T19:39:00.000-05:00

hiya people,
Yes it's me, and i have nothing to write about except for the fact that my parents almost killed me today (not really) and there are NO classes this week!!!!!!!!! YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I AM HAPPY I DON'T HAVE TO GET UP EARLY ON A MONDAY THIS WEEK, ok that's enough.
i don't think anyone actually reads this, does anyone read this?
does anyone think that i should put stories and stuff that i write on here, or somewhere?
Why does no one comment?
where is sonja?
why am i asking where is sonja when i know where she is?
Who actually takes time to read all the boring stuff i write about?
Who thinks the stuff i write about is interesting?
Who thinks i'm boring?
ok thats enough questions well goodbye
*goes off and waits for sonja to come on instant messaging*

Wow

2004-02-13T15:58:00.000-05:00

i have been sick with some not feeling well thing, (yuck) i felt like crap yesterday and part of today, it sucks, i have felt nausious for a couple days and it just sucks, now i'm starving and thats because i haven't eaten in a while, and my feaver is almost gone YAY! but i still feel like crap, just not as bad as before so YAY! i'm getting better.
well i'll talk to y'all later
Ta

Emily

2004-02-11T20:33:00.000-05:00

Emily G has a blog, the link is over there click it!

stupid human race

2004-02-11T16:24:00.000-05:00

THE STUPID AFTER SCHOOL PROGAM CAN ONLY HAVE 26 KIDS THERE, BUT WHAT HAPPENS IF THE WHOLE MIDDLETOWN SPRINGS SCHOOL DICIDES THEY WANT TO TRY IT OUT? THERE ARE 50 SOMETHING KIDS IN THAT SCHOOL, SO, HOW CAN THEY DO THAT, I MEAN THATS LESS THEN HALF THE SCHOOL THAT THEY ARE LETTIN GO TO THAT AND IT'S FOR ALL THE KIDS IN MIDDLETOWN SO I MEAN REALLY, IT JUST MAKES ME MAD.
Literature today i have to do my esay thing, but i think i have an idea for it, which is good. i don't want to do it though, i don't feel good, i'm worried about something, and thats why i don't feel good i hate my stupid nerves. I THINK I WAS MENT TO BE AN ELF, I HATE IDIOTS SOOOOOOOOOO MUCH, LIKE THE ONES WITH NO COMEN SENSE IT ANNOYS ME, AND JUST MAKES ME MAD, AND NORMALLY THOSE PEOPLE ARE ADULTS SO I DON'T SAY ANYTHING TO THEM AND AHHHHHHHHHHH I HATE NOT BEING BLUNT, OR BOLD OR ANY OF THAT, BUT IT WOULD BE RUDE IT I WAS TO ADULTS. no one is home here but me, my mom is shopping and my dad is working, and yea, we saw a play today, we meaning me rainbow, rosemary and cerridwen. it was cool, except for the fact that i didn't feel good through the whole thing cuz i was worried about some stupid thing.
i almost went to middleberry with my mom, but i dicided on the last minute to go to the play and literuature. Rainbow, Cerridwen and i went in to essentel alternitives and they have these pins, they were soooooooooo funny one was "i only dress like this to scare the rebuplicans" and the one Cerridwen bought was "they need us more then we need them and they know it." the one i wanted said "Lets just say i pay no attention to athority." or something to that effect. there were a lot of good ones. "if the world didnt' suck we'd all fall off." should be a bumper sticker.
well i'll go now
Ta

ughhhhhhh

2004-02-10T14:27:00.000-05:00

ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i can barley talk, ughhhhhhhhhhhhh i can't sing, it's a good thing it isn't monday. and i don't wanna write my thing for literuatre ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, i wanna write some thing funny (i don't know if i'm good at that) and i have dicided that i might not but stories on here it's too much work, i don't like work ughhhhhhhhhhhhhh, Kayla aka KAS wrote me a letter and i got it today, i wonder where i get my friends from i really do, they are all wacky, but remember the freaks survive! that means when the world changes all the clones (aka people who act the same as everyone else) will be gone and me and my friends will be here YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! well as i said before UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH TO EVERYTHING ELSE, i have to go get fitted for a dress for a wedding on the 21st YAY! but still the wedding's in september so....................... i don't know. well i get back to doing nothing now
Ta

is sick

2004-02-10T10:07:00.000-05:00

i have a cold, the stupid coughing thing my dad had i think, he had it for a week, *moans* poor me, my friends Sonja wants to get a blog YAY!!!!!!!! lucky her, i'm writing a story were people meaning me and a few of my friends wake up on hard ground in rohan, in MIDDLE EARTH, i hope sonja doesn't smother legolas with kisses and i also hope cerridwen doesn't either and that brittaine doesn 't kill them all, and that chelsea doesn't run of to find frodo so that they can fall in love which will never happen, and i hope that they don't all drive me crazy, well any way, i'm sick, and drinking Orange juice and have barley any voice, and am bored, and hungrey and why am i complaning, this can't be interesting, but who cares if it is or not, i still haven't started my writing asignment for literuate, i don't wanna do it WAAAAAAAAA but if i'm sicker tomorrow i'm not going so, i guess it'll be alright, should i do it anyway incase i'm not worse tomorrow? i would if i was observent enough, or cerative whatever come first, or of course spelling which has nothing to do with that, but anyway i'm sick and i will go and wallow in my self pity
ta

hi

2004-02-09T21:09:00.000-05:00

tis monday, wheaton u spelled my name wrong on that link! H-A-L-E-Y *glares* GET IT RIGHT PEOPLE!
anyway we had classes today, we have none next week, but i think we have chorus, i have an essay to write for biolagy, and i have to write something to literuitre due wedsday i haven't started it yet, i don't want to do it, but i shall, if i can become that creative in a day, i had better or i'll proably get yelled at or something like that by my mother or father *cringes* Cerridwen came over tonight, we didn't really do much, we ate, played on the computer, watched tv, played on the computer and went outside not in that order. i think i may be getting sick, yucky, it's not what my dad has though which is good unless it is what my dad has, which is bad. If anyone knows if there is chorus next week tell me i need to know! i keep messing up the links on here, but i think i finally fixed them, and the comment things showed up so i'm HAPPY! Well goodbye beautiful people.

thanks

2004-02-08T22:53:00.000-05:00

i am now thanking wheaton and nate for helping me with my blog, THANK U THANK U THANK U!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! If it worked that it *snickers* anyway since my problems may be sloved i'm happy! completly and utterly happy, once again thanks loads u guys i would NEVER had figured it out if u hadn't helped!
Ta

COMMENTS AND LINKS!

2004-02-08T21:44:00.000-05:00

if ANY one knows how to make it so people can put comments and i can link to stuff please tell, me since if u know this address i gave it to u so u know who i am, please i'm beggin u, wheaton is atemmpting to help me i think so i will let u know if help is not needed but umm it's needed right now!

grr again

2004-02-08T09:35:00.000-05:00

this is starting to make me mad, it has the first post then it doesn't i think i'm losing my mind. i have made up my mine to delete that post since it's being a bum-bum-head (my father called my dog and other things that)

stupid

2004-02-07T22:36:00.000-05:00

ok the post the one that says "yea i'm boring what'cha gonna do about it" is the first post i made but it didn't come up untill now.

Jesse

2004-02-07T21:56:00.000-05:00

this is my third post tonight, but Jesse (he's a person one of my friends from montana knows) is being a jerk i won't go in to details it goes along the lines of "your so hot" then the next message "die" it's annoying, he's trying to be funny, it ain't funny, and now he left (thank the valar) he says he'll be right back *panics and runs to the nearest hidding place* i like my new lord of the rings story that i kill legolas in, but i think i'll post stories that kinda lead up the that so it's not confusing *smiles inocently* anyone: how do i get it so people can put comments on my thing? or am i not seeing something? anyway Jesse's back dam, i hope he doesn't try to act funny again, where is britt when u need her, of course AWAY grrr....., i know weird people thats all i can say, did i say sad i mean sick, u dont wanna know what he just said. (grossness)
my parents were acused of bouncing a check at price chopper (dam that store) they didn't i know this for a fact, my parents would never do anything like that, the michene in the store was screwed up (grr.) Jesse's acting stupid again someone save me! he just said
"U fine baaaaby" SAVE ME! *Groans* men
he is one sad kid i'll say that. i mean sick, sick u don't wanna know what he just said. (grossness)

RAR!

2004-02-07T20:04:00.000-05:00

my frist post (not the one that says ahh in it) didn't show up, so i'm writting again, about nothingness, i like adding ness on the end of words it always looks cool, *smiles* i'm chatting with some friends and doing nothing at the same time is that possible?
Anyway, i'm bored, and am mad cuz my first post didn't come up (if itdid tell me) oh i just thought i'd lett u know that i plan to use disclaimers for every fan fiction story that i put on here the may be funny cuz i act insane some times.
I want to have a good charlotte fact off, with my friends friend soooooooo bad, but i can't grr........ well any way i'll talk to some of u people later, i think u know me if your looking at this if not, well then GO AWAY just kiddin well good bye beautious people
ta

Ich Hasst Dadurch Ich Bin

MARKY MARK!!!

It's over...THANK GOD.

meh.

it's about time

more song...hour...thing

oh well

Wedding Day

song hour...again

uhh

time for an update.

time for an update.

well............uh-huh

watch out Rhode Island, here we come

song hour with, Lostprophets, A.F.I, New found golry, and more..

Well...their back

DISTURBED

and there will be music

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BAM!

so well uh....yeah

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LED ZEPPLIN!!!!!!!!

Song update

Solarfest COME BACK!!!!!!!!!!

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Whew

FAIRLEE!!! ha ha ha

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

I MISS MY LINKS!!!!!!!!

well

Depressed and in need of friends.

A question

well

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeha

I'M BACK!!

hmmmm

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NOOOOOOOOOOOO not sickness nooooooooooooo

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OOPS

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uh-oh

HOOOOOOOOHAW

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the update that no one will ever read

well well well

Sadness

SmarterChild is well uhh strange

OOOOOOOO

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

la

Monkeydoodle

UNLOVED

Blue Streaks

Mondays

Hey

La la la and questions

Wow

Emily

stupid human race

ughhhhhhh

*is sick*

hi

thanks

COMMENTS AND LINKS!

grr again

stupid

Jesse

RAR!

is sick